Today was mass dance. I had forgotten a great deal of it, but it always felt so comfortable with people dancing in front of me. Thus, I was still able to follow up pretty well. Missed out on "That Thing You Do", because I had to attend HRC meeting at 10. Well, I had expected this to be like any other, only to learn about the fact that one of the teachers was going to sit in. Wa! He sure can nag and drag things. Considering that I only slept at 4 the previous night, there's only one word to describe me- zonked! Went home after that. Had wanted to meet bao as was arranged yesterday, but she stood me up again (expecting me to wait for her for 30 minutes). Thus, I stood her up too. Went off with Mai! Theen! How could you finish the work so fast! 

Today's been pretty unproductive. Despite having spent hours in front of the laptop, the work is still far from complete. Now is 230 in the morning, and I have finally completed the overdue Chemistry! Phew (sigh of relieve). That's how pressing workload has been on me these days. Perhaps this was how she does it? Surely, change is the only constant.

Somehow, irony kills life. Chatting with people on MSN is sure an enjoyable thing to do. Just as SMS becomes a necessity in life, MSN is catching up fast too. But yet, I'm beginning to loath it. Somehow, it has the perfect facade to hide one's emotions. A "haha" or a"hehe", or even a smile at times of sadness. Especially when one is at the brink of tearing, those things only make it feel even more terrible. Yes, after so long, I teared again, perhaps for a last time. That decision took me so long, and I had to overcome so much reluctance. But I know if that's not the case, I will be the one exchanging every extra moment with my soul- my genuine smile, my happiness. Let me reiterate. Give me appreciation; take away denial. Either would be fine. I wonder if that's the right thing to do. Joel asked me to pray about it, but the next thing I did- made the decision myself. I got to learn to be more dependent on God. I'm sorry Father, please soften my heart so that I will follow you in every of your word, so that everything I do will be pleasing to you, and according to your will, not mine. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.