Perfected by Wednesday, rested by Thursday, Cheered up by Friday
Posted by Judah at 3/29/2009 04:30:00 AM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
When MCTs were still on, one thing was always on my mind, even when I was revising heavy weight subjects such as Chemistry and Geography, that thought never budge. Such was my strong desire to see the end of MCTs. And finally, a week of mental unrest and body exhaustion has ended. Friday school ended at 10+. Physics had a rough start, but eventually progressed well. As for other subjects, I'm not so confident for Mathematics and perhaps physical geography. While the others I would very much expect at least a decent C grade. General Paper had been where I pit a lot of hope on, but to be realistic, a C grade seems like a minor breakthrough possible.
Then came Saturday. Training was at 8, meeting time was at 750, and I reached school at 640? Haha, had wanted to do some light physical training, like a slow jog around the track, some push ups and stuffs. But the ever so cooperative school's workers (guards and cleaners alike) refused me entrance until 730. Gradually, many floorballers came, and the guard finally decided to be nice to allow us in at 720-_-. Because of that, mosquitoes and flies outside school's gate had a sumptuous buffett of human blood for breakfast.
Cheerleading practice was tiring, very much owing to the merciless morning sun. There was a little of everything here and there, so we still abided well to the school's regulations of training. Phew, relief*. Finally, the whole routine is very much in place, and it sure didn't feel like 5 minutes because everything was so packed. The final piece of dance was out too, and haha. It certainly is a SOMETHING for me to master within the next at most 1, at best 3 days. Haha! All the best Alpha cheerleading=)
Had a mini TWFC outing in the noon, which hopefully like what many had said, was only the start of many. We prapared a small suprise for Helena because it's her birthday! Happy birthday Helena (I wanted to use another color for this, but I think no other suits you better than this. smiles*). Haha, Caleb, Yug Han, and me went to the cakeshop and was tempted into getting that cake that looked super nice! (I'm not sure if the photos are coming, but they will definitely be up if they do come).
Then we went to Suntec to watch Race to the Witch Mountain, which I thought was really nice. That film fulfilled my claim that I'm a guy who tears easily. Haha. But yeap, I like the show, especially the latter part. The starting 1o minutes of so was a little hard to catch, because the identity of everyone was veiled, (but eventually revealed as the story progressed). Only part which I didn't quite like was the abrupt inclusion of the baddies (the Rock's ex-accomplice) because their involvement only revolved around the "wolf guy" wanting him to join them back. Otherwise, this totally does not click in well with the plot, like literally abrupt- neither beginning nor end to it. Unless the producer was hoping to use that as a contrast towards the little girl's last line, "you are a good man", to show the audience how he transformed from a baddy to a goody (which was a transformation that very well might not have existed because he refuted the return from the beginning outside his taxi). Perhaps it was more on the mentality kind- from I will never return to prison, to I will never forsake them. Haha! The 2 kids are really cool, and their psychic, awesome. Literally moved when the trust was built- no matter how cliche it may be. Hm, after this, and the Game Plan, and perhaps a little of the Rundown, I think I've pretty much fell in love with Dwayne Johnson's films, as much as I like Will Smith's. Suprisingly,not the Mummy returns because I never watched. Haha.
After movie, we dined at Subway. Believe it or not, that was the first time I ate Subway despite having a mini outlet in the school. Not bad I thought, it tasted fine. But I think the symptoms are becoming obvious. Everytime after a film-viewing I will almost definitely fall into a state of emo-ness. I realised it could be the aftermath of soul-blowing when one is too engrossed, that he might be suffering from having difficulties to get out? Hm... Think too much, and no matter how hard I tried to emphasise the importance of remaining optimistic, thoughts always come knocking, and the next moment, poof*, silence. All the past thoughts came back, and having items of many sentimental values (Mr cyclops) certainly did not help. Have I really gotten out of it?
After very long, finally a decent long post.
To someone: so that was the reason why I was not online, partially because I was too tired too. Actually I came on for a while, but went off after like 20 minutes. Ya...
Posted by Judah at 3/28/2009 04:14:00 PM
much delayed photo. I think that was last year.
Posted by Judah at 3/28/2009 07:07:00 AM
Friday, March 27, 2009
Yes! Like finally exams have come to a halt (not a stop yet though). It has been rather hectic juggling everything and anything I was involved in, especially given my notroius poor time management. Alright, actually it hadn't been that bad, had I not rest 2 everytime I finish studying 1 (not literal, but it's that kind of ratio).
Well well, having said that, I'm not expecting too much for any of the papers. Like ever since I've entered JC, scoring above 70 has become even rarer than the blue moon. Hm. But still, disappointments still set in whenever things don't go well and they still do. Some may be hoping for a pass in everything, but being so used to being the high-flyer, I'm seriously wanting A-grades very badly. But again want and can are different things. Not that I doubt my ability, I'm quite certain of what I'm capable of. But then again can and want are different things jsut as well- they are communitative. When will I ever want to really start studying proper?
But anyway, it's supposed to be a good day. The approaching of the next cheerlead session definitely is a huge boost- I'm so looking forward as each day passes. Come on! Alpha warriors! It's kick butt time=)
Posted by Judah at 3/27/2009 04:09:00 AM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
That's how God's love spreads? In the squad, if there is any genuine friendship that crosses way beyond acquaintanceship, I think there's only one person- that is Zen. Yet, I've known him for only just as long. As for the other squad members, it's really cool how much we are bonded each time there is a training. People whom I've known longest to Zen have got to be my OGMs, with the exception of Shiyan (whom I've always treated as a little sister, and Hanle who kind of disappeared after last year's cheerleading). But this time round, I can sense an entirely different kind of friendship- genuine care and concern. Perhaps this explains my urge to always launch a mass convo whenever there are cheerleaders online. Haha, Alpha cheerlead 2009, this is serious matter. I'm so so SOooooo in LOVE with you all! God bless everyone=)
All the colors of the rainbow! (testify to love)
Posted by Judah at 3/25/2009 09:24:00 AM
Yay, I've finally finished math revision. Compared to heavy geography and chemisty, this revision is really so much easier. Flip flip flip, poof! I'm there=) Doing well or not is an entirely different thing though=) I pray that my faithful Lord will continue to watch over me as I continue this war. Lord, I pray that You will fight this war for me, for I know my strength comes from you. Do well or not, it is by You and through You only=) I love You Father, and you deserve all our praises and worship. Amen.
Favourite song=)
Oh how I love You Jesus
I know that You love me so
I love Your Word that tells me You I belong
Though I am weak, You are strong
Your hands so big, they carry me
Though I am weak, You are strong
Your hands so big, they carry me
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
My heart just overflow
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
Oh how I love You Jesus
I know that You love me so
I love Your Word that tells me You I belong
Though I am weak, You are strong
Your hands so big, they carry me
Though I am weak, You are strong
Your hands so big, they carry me
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
My heart just overflow
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
True, You love me so much
True, You love me so
My heart just overflow
You love me, Jesus
Holy Spirit You love me
Posted by Judah at 3/25/2009 09:14:00 AM
After so long without a proper entry, I've finally decided to blog. Don't be mistaken. Exams are still on-going, and we are far from over, but the guilt is already getting the better of me. Like that time I told Cheryl we are alike because we blog everyday, so when was the last time I had a daily entry?
March holidays had come and gone, and like seriously JC is draining up the days like nobody's business. I'm like poof-ified and OMG-ish! Days are so packed and everything so much so much, which once again made me feel so whiney. It never fails to do so, and I hate the whiney me, like kind of irritating arh? Complaining about anything and everything. Hm. That's life I guess. But nevertheless I'm glad out faithful God always remain in us, no matter what. Like today during chemistry and geography, having slept at 1 last night, it's kind of difficult to sit through 6 hours of written assignments, especially when both are just as heavily weighted with piles and piles of contents. Thank you Father.
Wednesday, and 3 papers are down. 2 more to go, and I think I've not disappointed myself in terms of efforts put in. Yeap, been mugging until ungodly hours for the past few nights, largely due to the lack of self-discipline. Like whenever I try to study, I will either drift off to facebook or chat with my beloved cheerleaders. Like really, that has been the case for since forever. Though I started darn late, like all last minutes work, but as I trust in Him I shall do whatever I will and leave the can or cannot to Him. Yes, so that's how I cope bah. Thank you Father.
Other than unending revision for MCTs, much time was dedicated to cheerleading. Like cheryl, I'm so in love with my squad. Like even if I do badly for MCTs, I will never regret joining cheerleading again this year. Such is the love for it! Like really! My squad rocks!
2 more papers to go! Jiayou everyone=)
Posted by Judah at 3/25/2009 04:54:00 AM
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Posted by Judah at 3/22/2009 06:48:00 AM
Friday, March 20, 2009
Posted by Judah at 3/20/2009 09:56:00 AM
Thanks for the porrige. Though I'm still kind of emo-ing. But effort appreciated.
Posted by Judah at 3/20/2009 09:14:00 AM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Persistent headache:
Fighting off the drowsiness from the drugs! A double dosage somemore.
Posted by Judah at 3/19/2009 09:41:00 AM
reflection
I'm supposed to be studying for MCTs now. Well well, today completed Chemistry, which should have been an affair of 2 days ago. Yes, lag a lot. Cheerleading is not helping much either. Though despite that, I'm falling in love with the practices by the day. I feel like ranting, I feel lousy. Like so much so that I'm taking out blogging instead of continue that thousand miles race of MCTs.
I realised that having an expectation is not a good thing about 2 weeks ago, and I realised I was having such a big problem managing that. So I took the vow, I'm gonna work on that. But time and again, I failed myself. Like what Helena said, "fail". Yes, fail. I've been keeping that expectation- you ought to have done this, you should have done that. Sermon taught me- be gentle on others, be harsh on self.
Actually I thought I have improved, only to be dealt a strong blow everytime I see it somewher- explicit or discreet. "I am myself, and I don't want to be compared to other people." Yeap, subconciously I'm doing a lot of that, and very little of loving them. Very disappointing, I am. Like, especially when you learn about all these the hard way. I've always been very very egoistic about my leadership qualities, but even those have been casted into doubts.
When a team is not a team, what is there to lead? One man team...
Expectation-less is only possible when everyone is appreciative of that. That is everyone has the self-discipline to do what is expected, so there won't be a need to expect the already done. But is that possible?
Posted by Judah at 3/19/2009 07:48:00 AM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Haha. Fergie and rooney very cute:
"As for [Wayne] Rooney, if I left him out, I’d have to do it by e-mail or I’d never hear the end of it. I have been blessed with terrific players."
Posted by Judah at 3/18/2009 08:21:00 PM
Crazily in love with ALPHA CHEERLEADING 2009!!!
Posted by Judah at 3/18/2009 09:12:00 AM
Once upon a time...
Stared into the distant skyline,
And wondered how the other side was like
Thoughts and imaginations lifted me high
That hopes elevated but the oldys sigh
That square vision of one only path,
Lined with candified trees, remain no more
For the cruelty of growth had punched a dent into my innocent soul
The boy-boy's wish for the world of fantasy
Where simplicity held hand in hand a beautiful life
But *poof* it burst as the dream bubble-fied.
Craving for love, and loathing the schemes
Me-You-He-and She became terms of mere words
Reached my hand out to touch the sky
An every attempt puffed with cresent smiles
I hope I wish I crave I want
The bliss the rainbow to never faint
But as I woke up and grasped it tight
I opened my palm and see you poofed*
Gosh I thought the playful you
Hidden into my palm I once sought you
But now I know the hurting truth
That thought, that bliss, that smiles of yours
Have left me for good and left me for long
Diversified paths gave me the poke
That urged me forward and never stop
I now wished I could turn back,
But the ends chased up and disappeared
Opps, I tripped and cried and drowned
Help me my Heavenly Lord
For You promised to lead me out
Now I understand why the oldys sighed
As the loss was big Big BIG!
Child's soul, wild thoughts, and that genuine smile,
Searched my stupid pocket to find a useless ticket.
Now I'm the one to sigh
To be stab, and punched, and kicked, and slapped
Gosh, heal this lost world
And help them to retrieve the ability to DREAM
To demute the radio that plays the Bunny tune
To make them wish upon that falling stars
To child-ified their minds to watch the Wonka show!
The Oompa men will walk with me
To cast that magical stroke to candify those trees again
Then I will reach out my hand to try again
A grasp I clenched and drew back fast
For fear of losing what I've lost
And I slowly undo my stubborn fingers
To peep the fruit of that resurrection
And a glow dazzled my eyes
As an angel rose before me
And did the glamorous dance
Now I know my hopes are alive
As I have learnt the wonderful thing
To place everything in His hands
And be touched in every single way
God so love the world that He gave His only Son
So that those who believed in Him would not perish and have eternal life
In Jesus name I pray Amen
So to re-live the once upon a time
And chase the happily ever after.
Small versus big
I witnessed the star drop into the ocean
I was afraid it might drown
I was afraid the coldness of the water will put off the weak-ified flame
That's what I call a positive impact/influence. Good teammate=)
"Eboue's presence is said to be of great benefit to the club's dressing room. At Hallowe'en it has been alleged that the charismatic dancer turned up to training early dressed in a tiger's costume, so that he could give his team-mate's a scare."
OMG! Please don't let me regret this. I totally forgot someone has the habit of posting message log on blog. Hm. But nevermind. It's all facts and an ultimate winner in me=)
Disbelief- time wasted. Had fun though=)
Posted by Judah at 3/16/2009 08:44:00 AM
Count down- 1 more day=)
Posted by Judah at 3/16/2009 05:40:00 AM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Great minds think alike:
Sir Bobby Charlton and Rio Ferdinand had similar sentiments as me=)
They can afford this loss=) Now the other champions league contender will go all out against Liverpool=P
Posted by Judah at 3/15/2009 10:40:00 PM
Target: Finish Chemistry by today (looks like a feat, but even that, I'll be hardly on track).
Posted by Judah at 3/15/2009 07:51:00 PM
Such an ungodly hour- 3am and I have only just completed my non-organic part of my Chem revision. I've no idea whether I'm on track or off, because I have no plans drawn out. As much as I wanted every tests to turn out well, none had been fulfilled just yet. Let's hope this time it's gonna be an improvement. I'm taking note of the prone ones, as well as the ones which might not have worked. Judah you can do it=)
Posted by Judah at 3/15/2009 12:29:00 PM
John 3:16
For God so love the world, so much that He gave His only Son, so that everyone who belives in Him, may not die but have eternal life.
I watched this, and I teared again. Thank you Father. I love Jesus.
I reckon this is the third time I'm posting this. Now that my blog is becoming more established after the orientation and all, I think it's good to share this. Enjoy: A beautiful testimony to love:
Posted by Judah at 3/15/2009 10:14:00 AM
PERHAPS the end
Oblivion is hurtful
I had to force PRETENCE
Posted by Judah at 3/15/2009 07:58:00 AM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
I woke up in the morning
dazzled by the dim in the dawn
realisation struck upon me
and I scrambled to all 4s
I was late for church!
Oh well, that was what happened this morning, a little of everything- dramatic, helpless etc. I had set my alarm at 630, and even decided to turn in in the living room, but all these efforts were to no avail. Mai had wanted to come church today too, and that really scared the hell out of me when I woke up this morning. Not that I don't want to see her on a weekend, but that I was super late. Having turned in only at 1 odd the previous night, I woke up at 10+, a bad 2 hours lapse from the arranged 840. Fortunately, when I rushed out of the room to where my phone was- new message: Mai woke up late too, not as late as I did though. Haha. Yeap, next time perhaps. But a little disappointing, not the first time this year, and I reckon probably not the last. =( Father Lord, I pray for discipline, and I pray that You will fight this war for me, defeat the Satan that always puts me to sleep everytime I wanted to turn up for the appointment I have with You. In the Son's most wonderful name I pray, amen.
ps. Judah is pronounced as ee-oo-dah. Like Starwar's master Yoda. Haha.
=Love
