ENJOY


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O Holy Night
God's Angels guided me through

brightening darkness; removing obstacles

to have seen me thus far

Secrets of the woods become secrets no more

For God has commanded me to share my experience

with those whom trust and don't

as the encounter would witness and stand

and show the greatness of our mighty Lord

God bless



*God's child*
*Koh Tiongwei*.
9-teen
24th February 1991
Christian


*Foot-track*

-All Saints (English Congregation) -Gongshang Primary 1.8, 2.8, 3.7, 4.7, 5.7, 6.7
-Ngee Ann Secondary 1e4, 2r4, 3r1,4r1
-TJC House Committee 16th ALPHA
-Anglican Diocese Youth Board Project Serve 2010

Loves
*♥Jesus♥ *
♥Fantastic Five
♥Caricatures
♥Alpha House Committee
♥Soothing music
♥Nature wonders
♥Outdoors
♥Traveling
♥Football[EPL]
♥Fascinating Facts
♥Cool Surprises
♥Cartoons [Pixar and Disney]


Dislikes
Jesus said,"Love your enemy."


Wishlist
*fallen star *
~Bicycle
~Backpack
~Tee
~Shades
~Laptop*
~Watch
~Happiness*



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Old Stories
Judah likes the recollection: one day before setti...
Resolution (2011): Better discernment/ fuller dedi...
Testimony 2010
"Future holds too much uncertainty for us to compr...
I really like my last 2 entries. Anyway, I had my ...
It's that time of the year again. Somewhere not to...
Sentimental
For 3 weeks, we've been talking about temptation d...
At some point of time, this may seem like a weird ...
Many a time, I really hope that I might have had m...





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Praise the Lord

Friday, December 31, 2010

Testimony 2010

The story: It's been 2 year and 6 days since my baptism, and on this significant moment as the church crossed into its 25th year, I think I'd just like to share a little about how wonderful God has been to me over the eventful year of 2010. A year ago when I was still an employee in Cocoa Tree, I came up to share once, about the little incident on monetary matters. God was good and faithful to me- my sentiment back then was, " God is so good to us that it's almost natural for us to have at least one thanksgiving everyday as long as we choose to acknowledge." That mentality, I am grateful to say that our Lord has imprinted it hard upon my heart, that every week as I attended Poiema, despite the kinds of tiredness and the bad things that may have happened over the week, I would still be able to give thanks to Him. By that, I can only say that those moments, it has really been His grace and mercy that seen me through numerous ugly moments- such as a back injury in BMTC, a spiritual encounter in Thailand while doing Serve, yet came through each of them unscathed, or at times even stronger than before. God is still very good and faithful to me. For many, 2010 is an exceptional year of changes, especially for the new batch of pre-U school leavers. The lot of us from All Saints, some have gone for NS, while others have gone for further studies. As such, we had to deal with many tough decisions. For myself, one such was the signing of the contract that will ultimately tie me to the force for an additional 3 years on top of my NS liability. My time in OCS had not been the best time because I experienced confidence-shattering moments and at some point of time, relationship problems. I couldn't really adapt to life in MIDS wing as a Navy Officer Cadet. Til today, I've completed close to 5 months of the extended course. Situation has improved since then, but what followed is a period of uncertainty. Now, I'm facing the dilemma of an OOC (out of course) possibility because of a suspected heart disease, which came out of nowhere. Initially, I was boasting to many that I can finally "get back my life", but as that possibility was confirmed, I didn't quite like the sound of it. As of now, my life is simply filled with a lot a lot of uncertainties, but one verse speaks to me aptly: Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." For that, I thank God for His faithfulness, comfort, assurance, and His wonderful promises! 2010 also marks a significant milestone, not only in my life, but that of my entire family as well. I've had come from a Buddhist-Taoist family background. Christianity was nothing more than an alien subject before the wonderful inclusion of my best friend Joel in my life 3 years ago. As a new Christian, I was really on fire, and I brought many people to church, but my closest kins were never part of the consideration. I never though about bringing my sister, nor my mother, nor my dad. There've been moments when the church staffs told me to pray about it, but I merely nodded it off, perhaps still unable to comprehend the reality of hell back then. But the beginning of this year, maybe because of Serve, I sense something different. In the past, sharing about God's Word within the family had never been easy, and the best that I could muster were really many failed attempts. But because of Serve, my sister became envious of my involvement in church work (from my facebook photos) and subsequently my 7 days- mission trip to BanChang Thailand. I believe that was the trigger, and together with the improved relationship that I have with her, church invitation became one of the most common topic whenever we had HTHT. God continued to soften her heart and that only served as an encouragement and affirmation for me to press on. Then, there was Insomnia, during which the relentless attempt finally paid off and my sister gave the nod. She came,enjoyed herself, and perhaps for the first time in her life, she experienced something different, unlike even the churches that she has gone before. At the same time, my commitment in camp didn't permit me to have time to follow up on my sister's progress, and I am guilty. Occasionally, when I felt like it I would have sort of like a mini bible study with my sister over the weekend, but that only remained at occasional basis, hence the guilt. For that, I thank God for Aunt Stephanie who is now my sister's Godma. Ask Gerry and you might find out how uneasy I was when my sister first came to church, but I had to be absent. But because of Aunt Steph, I learnt to commit. Even when I went away for my 3 weeks voyage, I knew my family was in good hands, and that God was watching over them. Earlier on, on the 10th October 2010, my sister got baptised in the Lord's name and joined the big family of All Saints English congregation. That same week, my mom got baptised too at the Chinese Congregation after reading the Chinese bible I got her during Mother's Day this year. It had seemed impossible before, but our God is all-powerful. Right before my own eyes, I witnessed the transformation of 2 lives. As of now, I am still reaching out to my dad subtly, but I continue to trust in His timing. For all these, together with the small daily encouragement, I thank God for who He is!

Posted by Judah at 12/31/2010 11:29:00 AM

Monday, December 27, 2010

"Future holds too much uncertainty for us to comprehend. Things in the past, of which I am me. I am who I am because of whatever that might have happened eons ago, deliberate or not."
-Judah-
As Christmas came to past, the year of 2011 is drawing near with the passing of every second. I've had enough reflection, but yet to begin my new year resolutions! Oh my, 4 more days to go and I really need to set a direction!

Posted by Judah at 12/27/2010 07:31:00 AM

I really like my last 2 entries. Anyway, I had my 2-dimension Echocardiogram test today. I had thought that it would be my confirmation- to see where I'd be heading to (at least to find out if I'm staying or leaving), but it turned out to be a little bit of a disappointment. At some point in time, I got myself convicted that indeed, it's a trial- the withholding of a certainty could only make my reliance on Him heavier. I really got to trust Him in all ways. It is a tough, yet necessary expectation of a Christian- He is my Lord, my Saviour, my Provider. Career and prospects apart (life is really not just about money, ain't it!), another consideration is really the fact that if I am really plagued by some disease, chances are that I probably won't get myself a girlfriend, be it now or in Uni. Isn't that sad? =( Now I've been placed on a non-expiry waiting list. The uncertainty only increases with time- now I don't even know what lies ahead- perhaps doing my best for every subsequent step is the only viable option I have right now. He will still take me by my hand- I believe!

Posted by Judah at 12/27/2010 07:00:00 AM

Sunday, December 26, 2010

It's that time of the year again. Somewhere not too long ago, I discovered my love for the month of December, particularly the Christmas ambiance (not that we get a lot of that in Singapore, but it somehow just portrays the feelings of coming together and above all- PEACE). I love autumn too, but Christmas and December are the 2 misfits amongst my Autumn liking. 2010 has been pretty eventful for the 19ish- a very organised segmentation into different phases, each imprinting and constituting a significant portion of the decade. There was the much-missed project Serve, followed closely by dear BMT and then 3 months of pre-mids, til today when I'm finally a-third through my course. Physically, I've become a lot stronger and fitter; spiritually, there have been ups and downs, but generally it's been on an upward climb; emotionally, shamefully still quite unstable, but nevertheless still a great year- especially with the inclusion of cool people like Gerry, Ya Hui, Joseph, Pastor Jeremy, Jolyn, Ruth and Daniel Ng. Some barged into my life unannounced, some were people whom I've known for quite a while but God-guided-ly grew closer this year. Really thank God for these people. 2010 was also a year of many tough decisions- decision to give up things I ought to have given up long ago, decision to take up new things, decision to take up the responsibility to guide some of the youngsters, decision to rededicate, decision to plan for the future. It's all about the free will, and I thank God for this ability to choose, even more so for this amount of trust despite our apparent lack of Godly wisdom to make Godly decisions at ALL times. Then, there's also been a list of novelties that have undoubtedly spiced up my year. I thank God for the conversion of both my mom and my sis. I thank God for the exposures I've had in camp- especially the humbling process. I was told it's a breaking down process, I've envisioned it to be a prolonged period of pain and sorrow, but God is kind to let me take it by sips. The process is not complete, but for once I'm conceding- God is enough. Gerry impacted my life the most this year- especially in the aspect of self-realisation. Someday, and I really mean someday, I hope we'll reach the stage of self-actualisation. Am I really like him when he was much younger? (perhaps so..) Then there is this little hiccup to my officer course- suspected valvular disease. By name, it sounded very intimidating; by mood, it sounded quite demoralising, but really no one really knew what's it all about. The best part of it- I didn't even report sick for it. Just so happen that when day I blacked out due to exhaustion and they did an ECG on me, and poof, an anomaly was detected in my ECG's pattern and poof, I was sent to NUH and poof, I was hospitalised and subsequently did 3 ECGs and poof, my heart seemed to be confirmed with problem. For an extended period, I was happily boasting to people about how likely I'm gonna get out of course, and how I'm gonna lead my life QUITE differently. I mean, prior to this for at least half a year, I was convinced that hey, my future seems pretty fixed, at least for the next 10 years. Then, the breaking of this news tilted the entire balance, and everything has been swung out of place again. Uncertainty? Maybe, but this time round it is something which I welcome. It's an option to get out from something which didn't quite suit me. I mean there are of course people who enjoy the course and the prospect, but I for one (out of that many), definitely do not belong. Some people told me the takeaway for this is probably the importance of making good considerations such as signing a contract, but my view is really to make informed choices. Like many, I was probably blinded by what I thought would be a bright future- and had some expectations- ended up getting disappointed and disillusioned (not wanting to forget the fact that my confidence got shattered in this fateful place). It's an option, in fact an opportunity, to help me correct a mistake. For a while, I was telling many how much I yearn to get out, and if I don't I'd be quite disappointed. Putting them into equation, it's stability plus money plus pride versus youth, preference, purpose, relationship. Dilemma, but not enough to sway me. Getting out would most probably mean the loss of the former- meaning my uni and all would be an unsettled hassle again, but in exchange I got that freedom- I'd literally be freed from a bondage of 5 years. Tomorrow, I'll be heading down for further testing. Health is on the line, and I jokingly discussed with my buddy not too long ago. "What if the doctor tells me: 'I'm sorry sir, but you only have half a year left.'" I really don't know how I'd respond. Judgment day- maybe not to that extent. But it's a life-determining point definitely. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Posted by Judah at 12/26/2010 07:05:00 AM

Friday, December 10, 2010

Sentimental

So often, we feel like we've gone through a lot in our lives when we've only lived through barely 2 decades of the smoothest moments; So often, we feel that we are so competent to handle anything in life when the toughest we've ever come across was only the likes of contractual commitment.
Then at some point in time, we have some revelations. The concept of time is a big mystery, one that deals with so much relativity. Few months of bliss can flit by in a blink of an eye, but a minute of anxiety or sorrow has to be cursed and dreaded upon just for it to move a little. Those, are present.
Future holds too much uncertainty for us to comprehend. Things in the past, of which I am me. I am who I am because of whatever that might have happened eons ago, deliberate or not.
Today I learnt. The significance of truthfulness and sincerity in a relationship- 2 decades could equate to the deep understanding of an individual, but could also mean the deliberate building up of an illusion/facade to hide/deceive. I have always thought so, but today gave me a new insight- some part of which conflicted badly with the impression already in place. Half-trust.
Many a times I choose not to choose. Naively, I was convinced that as long as that decision does not belong to me, I'd have nil responsibility regardless of how things might turn out to be- especially so if the result is a bad one. Naive? Perhaps. Shirking responsibility? More likely. How and why in the world are more and more people adopting the easy way out? Thank God He has been very gracious to me- til now in those instances where I choose not to choose, He chose well in place of me. Like today- I felt that I could help, but I felt like doing something else, yet when I was told not to help I felt bad, so in the end I was told to help. (sometimes life really need not be so complicated- I obviously knew what was the right thing to do, and even more so what I wanted to do). The takeaway- the shedding of new lights to the character of a certain individual (my father), the reality of mishap (especially when we are amongst elderly), the willingness to contribute even if it means to only be there.

Posted by Judah at 12/10/2010 05:28:00 PM