ENJOY


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O Holy Night
God's Angels guided me through

brightening darkness; removing obstacles

to have seen me thus far

Secrets of the woods become secrets no more

For God has commanded me to share my experience

with those whom trust and don't

as the encounter would witness and stand

and show the greatness of our mighty Lord

God bless



*God's child*
*Koh Tiongwei*.
9-teen
24th February 1991
Christian


*Foot-track*

-All Saints (English Congregation) -Gongshang Primary 1.8, 2.8, 3.7, 4.7, 5.7, 6.7
-Ngee Ann Secondary 1e4, 2r4, 3r1,4r1
-TJC House Committee 16th ALPHA
-Anglican Diocese Youth Board Project Serve 2010

Loves
*♥Jesus♥ *
♥Fantastic Five
♥Caricatures
♥Alpha House Committee
♥Soothing music
♥Nature wonders
♥Outdoors
♥Traveling
♥Football[EPL]
♥Fascinating Facts
♥Cool Surprises
♥Cartoons [Pixar and Disney]


Dislikes
Jesus said,"Love your enemy."


Wishlist
*fallen star *
~Bicycle
~Backpack
~Tee
~Shades
~Laptop*
~Watch
~Happiness*



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Friday, October 31, 2008

Friday. 
Roy said it was one of the best day he had with 17/08. Indeed it was. Friday was the last rehearsal before the actual presentation, and after Monday it will be project work no more. My group reached school pretty early and we did some last minute rehearsals before letting our teacher assess us. Memorising and presenting without scripts was bad! Especially my turn when leg's phone rang, followed by Audrey's arrival in  class. My thoughts got cut twice, no wonder I could not recall my words. Perhaps God wanted to tell me that I was not well-prepared enough? Jiayou! It's the last stretch. 
PW ended at around noon. Quek Quek showed us that video, so full of memories. Broken head tiongwei. Haha, the tears almost broke. 1 year flew past so quickly, and I still remember that first GP lesson. Then he treated us to Pizza Hut. One of the rarest class gatherings that we have. Joined a super long table in that restaurant, and we were super noisy. Got warned a few times=P After meal, Leg suggested playing the extreme code game, and the forfeit was to drink some super mixture of chilli powder, cheese powder, pepper powder, cream of mushroom, and coca cola. The unfortunate victims were Lenny, ChuWen, Alvin and Kendra. I came close once, left with 3 numbers and everyone was telling me not to call 67 which was the numder in between. But I didn't mind the drink, for I've drank before worst ones. So I called 67, and Lenny was automatically forfeitted, with only one number left for him. 66's the numer=P. 
After that, all of us went back to school. Played ball games the entire noon, basketball, captain's ball and finally soccer. As usual I was the chiongster everywhere, so I tired out fast. Not exactly good, but chiong=P Soccer was teamed with Lenny and Arkur, and was with much frustration. Haha. Againt Roy, Isaac and Mat. In the end, we ended up nil-nil. Haha. I want to play soccer!
And like Roy said, we didn't have a fairy tale ending. Sendy lost his two-days old laptop charger. So in the end, we stayed in school to help him find, but to not much avail. Hopefully the school's attendants will recover it and return to him. After that, we went to join the girls for dinner, only to realise that all the girls had left. So only Eewen and Angelina joined us. Leg made a move before us. Then all of us dispersed. Angelina, Eewen and me forsake the original plan to go to Pasir Ris Park and settled for Tampines Mall. Had a nice chat on evangelism on the bus with them=) That day was the re-opening of my secondary school. It was also the last evangelism class for my church. But I didn't go for both. Felt bad initially, but when our conversation on the bus was so fruitful, I thought it was well-worth=). Then all of us got an ice cream each. Eewen had the oreo thing, Angelina had this sundae, and I got a waffle cone. Had wanted strawberry flavour but she gave me vanilla. Grr. But I shall settle with that. Then we walked from Tampines Mall to Century Square. Final destination: Mount Zion! I passed by that place so many times, and yet that was my frist time there. We spent like more than an hour there looking at bookmarks, cards, and key chains and all the nice quotes. Bought many things for many people=) I bought a mini mini bible. =) Should get a magnifying glass to read it. We left the place at around 9, and dispersed after that. 
It was the Halloween but the ambiance was nowhere near. I joked that maybe we should go get a mask each and go from block to block, door to door and say trick or treat=) Happy belated Halloween=)
 17/08 girls
Len, me, Roy
Me, Roy, ChengLiang
Quek Quek and Roy
CG lunch

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Posted by Judah at 10/31/2008 10:27:00 PM

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Wednesday was the official last day of school. We only went to school for result slips and submission of Insights and Reflections. Bao's dad gave me a ride in the morning, but I was late. Bao slept on the car, and I was feeling super cowardly. Awkward arh! School ended super early and there was this OGL briefing. Lasted quite low, and finished off with some cheers. Had a short meeting in the HC room before setting off for home. Suddenly felt very motivated to study and do well. I hope it sustain. But yet I've yet to start. Begone OP, begone PW. It's only 4 more days! At night I tried to memorise my script. Haha, that motivation spreads. I was really hoping to do well and clinch an "A" for my PW. Hm. Pray hard. At night, suddenly felt like writing my second piece, and poof it's there. And dad got kind of mad deeper into the night. Sister came home really late, and he was pissed. Poor mom got woken up from sleep to be accused of giving us too much freedom. Hm. Luckily it was quite peaceful today.
Today I woke up kind of late. The house was empty. Lonesome equals sad. I went to school, and met my group mates at the hawker opposite school. Had seafood soup, but I think they added pig's liver. Ew! I hate internal organs. Rehearsals were nothing I had hoped for. Too slack huh? It's only 4 more days, and everyone was procrastinating. One kept complaining tired and wanting to go home early. The other kept digressing to the outing they had planned for tomorrow. Hello? Prioritise arh! It's only four more days. Those things can leave until later, yea? I got a bit pissed and uptight. Really want to do well for myself, and so for my groupmates as well. But reality is our standard still not there, and if we were to keep procrastinating, like make it tomorrow and tomorrow and monday morning, then there's no way we are going to be confident of the substance right? Surprisingly, the one I had most problem with was fine today. So we went home straight after, at around 4? Was not feeling very good arh. Like really uptight. PW, HC. I must admit I do digress sometimes too. So we work together k? At home, chatted with leg and I came up with this not bad theory. When you feel sad, you ought to feel happy because it's double for the case of a smiley. Elaboration: Sad face got its mouth become a "n". But the eyes become "U". U=smile. So it's twice the happiness. Because of that sadness, the contrast will make us feel even happier when something good happens. Like heat transfer, the bigger the difference, the faster the radiation. Wahahaha. Basically that's that for today.

Posted by Judah at 10/30/2008 07:57:00 AM

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Small versus big
I witnessed the star drop into the ocean
I was afraid it might drown
I was afraid the coldness of the water will put off the weak-ified flame
Faded star
Childhood times, memory moments, children's dreams
I wished upon the stars 
I glared at the moon
A fallen star, a wishing star
The comet tail 
Left a lengthy trail
Whoosh, it dashed, across that many lightyears
And poof it splashed as the ripples formed
Blank my pupil wide-ified
Time paused, movemet froze
Looked back into the sky and saw an empty slot
The barren sky and the quiet wind
The lonesome that followed
A dashed star
And a smashed dream..
Drowned life
Belief you are strong and you are really strong
Passion of that life, moving on with love
The splash from the fallen star
Drenched the lovely passion
The spirit became dampened
and the hope became faint
Oh my! Stop-ify this! Optimism is a christian trait
I do what I preach
But that was only a self deceive
Shoo-ifiy stupid pessi
For pocket only contain nice things
Begone, sorrow, begone tears
I anticipate the next genuine smile
That would smiley-fy the yellow face
Flickered flame
Fire of love
Fire of dream
Fire of passion 
which pushed us on
Fire of the star carried it pass the million miles
Nature's way, beautiful way
Water kills the fire
The splash killed my flame
Panic-fied me got worried
I took the phone and dialed 995
Doctor doctor please save it
My flame is my wonderful friend
Shake head, sorry I've done my best
Too bad, too sad, it's pronounced dead
Embittered me lost the smile
The smile which so belonged to me, once
But it was not the end
God came, God spoke, and God healed me
Flame had joined Him in the heaven
Rejoice! Flame had gone to a better place
Optimism is indeed a christian trait
Finally the smile returned
A faint heat begun to rise
Sought within and found a small flame
The smile I craved, the smile I longed
Re-ignited the flame I once thought was gone
Thank you Father, thank you Lord
Flame of true love never fails
I'm willing to cling on
With all my might
Someday sometime somewhere somehow
Spontaneous combustion will keep me warm

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Posted by Judah at 10/28/2008 08:04:00 PM

Tuesday was fine too. Basically zero period, except for a little bit of geography. Lecture was skipped, tutorials were all spaced out for project work. Did my 4th rehearsal, and was still wuite unhappy about it. We need one full day to really familiarise everything. Jiayou guys! 
Even PE was a free period. We played soccer, and had a super deep cut in my knee. Lost lots of blood. Reminded me of the beginning of the year where I cracked my head. The entire day was fast to end. Afternoon had a HC meeting. Discussed about OGL, and mostly OGLs. Hope it will turn out cool. A lot of people are anticipating, while I'm not exactly looking forward. There's some drag in me. Except for perhaps I'm looking to working with some interesting personnels. Right, limbs=P Reached home late. Was kind of quiet. Emo, I doubt so. Just felt blank. Too much to think about. Like how to live a Christian way. Somehow I decided to be nice to mom today. She's old already... Haiz. I guess that's all for today. I want to go back to childhood. Maybe will write my second piece of abstract thing again. soon. Hasten-ified time....

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Posted by Judah at 10/28/2008 09:30:00 AM

Haha. I'm foolish huh? Baohui kept asking me to change my wall paper in my handphone, but I just refused. I'm very reluctant to do so. My rationale? If she has already given up, the more I've to cling on to it... Else, it's really gonna be an end. At least now it's still an unknown future. But in any case, realisation of me killing something which I've cherished so much was bad. How could I have killed that love. Nevetheless, no turning back. So I will just cling on to that thin line of hope Very fine, I'm so afraid it will snap... Yesterday I thought I felt better after the affirmation- somehow uncertainty was worse than rejection to me? I don't know. But when I was on the bus, a of things flashed again. Hm. I hate taking bus alone, make me feel super sad, and think a lot. Which I should not. That wall paper, it's the only photo we took. Haha, miss it bah. Do I really feel better? It might really have already become one-sided, but am I right to cling on... I don't want to be a pest, but yet deep down, it's gnawing all the time. I'm anticipating the next genuine smile, but how long does the anticipation have to last... And that SAT. medical course will easily take up to 6 years, and that's really long... Together with the next two years, it will be 8 years. 8 years of partition. The hope becomes thinner everyday, but I'm still clinging on to it. Father Lord, give me the strength... Even if it's really one sided. I won't complain anymore. Just don't let my hope die... I pray...

Posted by Judah at 10/28/2008 08:56:00 AM

Monday, October 27, 2008

It's monday. Once again dormany period in my blog. 
Friday we returned to school, and the only significant event was to do our rehearsal for oral presentation. It's still kind of bad. Thought my part was ok though. Apart from that, I think I've forgotten a major part of it already.
Saturday was SLC briefing. The 4 people who were involved in both Student leadership congress and student leadership camp, both acronymed SLC, must have been the busiest. First we attended the first part of the briefing for SLCo. Had to carry out some dry run for the actual event- they call it the survivor race. Did some chair crossing thing. Then blah, attended the SLCa briefing on the other side. Lots of Sports Excel people, and had a lot of lecture-like briefings. Played one game where I was blind folded to piece some puzzle together. And they said I play puzzle in my dreams because I was kind of fast. I wish I could piece the puzzle of my life as well as I did for this. Went home after that, and went to Joel's house again. Chatted with him a bit, and gave him some advice for his pamphlet. Turned in early at slightly past 10.
Sunday went to church with Joel's family. Jolyn left for New Zealand that morning, so all of us had to wake up early to see her off at the airport. Nice place to be. Eewen and Wanning joined me in church again. But I had to leave with Joel to attend some F.F's meeting, so left kind of early. Heard from the others that they settled in quite well, so that's really good. F.F meeting was fine. First time stay in Singapore's hotel, swissotel in Raffles City. The layout look kind of similar to the one I stayed in in Malaysia and Bangkok, except for the layout for the lobby, and perhaps the view. 54 storeys high, with esplanade and the singapore flyer under our feet. Quite an experience. Hotel bed remained as nice as ever. Daniel joined us after that. We mahjoned, carded, and movied. Then thanks to bobo, there was this pokemon craze in the room. Everyone started playing pokemon, even Joel gave up his fifa to play pokemon. I was Bao's advisor, and so naturally she leveled up and proceeded the fastest. I'm a good advisor. At night Joel had gastric. So me and Bo excused ourselves to go and buy him some bread, and of course Bao's present. We bought this mixed fruit something, and a F.F cup. Not bad. Surprise failed because of their reluctance to open the door, otherwise quite nice. The emo part was blogged on the other side, and yes, my mood wasn't good at all. Bao asked me to changed my wall paper in the handphone, but I was reluctant. Haiz... Turned in the earliest again.
Today's monday. Woke up in the room and had a good shower in that bathtub. Poor people like me don't have bath tub at home. Left with Joel to my PW meeting. Was a 1 hour late, but settled in fast. So discussed and discussed, until I go home. Emo part in the other blog again. So basically that's it...

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Posted by Judah at 10/27/2008 07:01:00 AM

Friday, October 24, 2008

Thursday was fine too, fine because we skipped school again. Consecutively, the second day. I was kind of shacked, because stay up to do some last minute editing. Anger! But I won't elaborate on it. PW's gonna end soon anyway. Went late for the meeting, and that person came even later! Pissed!
The entire morning was dedicated to doing our written report. After that we filmed a video which was really nice! I love it. Haha. Late noon, we went to the Parkway area to print our stuffs. Had lunch at Aston, if I'm not wrong. Yum Yum, quite nice. Then went to have print stuffs at Roxy Square where we tried to use the building's power supply to on Zen's antique portable desktop (his laptop). The security officer came to give us warning soon after, and we were forced to edit it in the shop. Wa! Took kind of long. Reached home at night, started doing video which took up almost the entire night=P 

Posted by Judah at 10/24/2008 03:50:00 AM

Briefing was fine for everyone else, except for me. My description for it was still 4 letters, also begins with the letter "f", but not fine. It's funn! Opps, it's 3 letters huh=P. I was feeling super restless, a typical joker of the time. Elmo sat beside him, and I was telling him how to deal with the teacher who's demanding a photo for us. 
First part, go get a photo frame and tell the teacher the form too small. Put your head through the frame, and try to glue the back of your head to the frame. He didn't have the photo at that time. And I was being lame.
Second part. He said the teacher demanded passport size. So I told him, ask the teacher to walk a distance away and gauge herself. When the size she is seeing is about that of the passport size, ask her to stop. Then can liao=P LAME!!!!
At night got quite pissed with bao. Haha. Was mentioned in the previous post about my long wait huh? But the anger didn't last long arh? Didn't know how to be angry for long liao. So we went to collect her medical report for her Temasek Internship program. She asked me something about positive and negative, which I totally had no idea. At thr clinic, we saw this man in his 30s I think. I think he is mentally challenged. He was like keep walking to and fro to the toilets, and he even vomited on one of the patients. Feel sad for both of them. Worst to come when he was sitted a few seats away from me, and all of a sudden shouted suddenly, and the next moment, he had fallen to his side, and *pomp*, dropped onto the floor. I was super shocked lah! Didn't know what to do. Seizure I call it, but I think the medical name is called fits. Phew, luckily we were in the clinic. We offered to help but the doctor very rudely rebuffed. The nurse was much nicer though. At night, Bao's dad fetched me home. And that's it for the day.

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Posted by Judah at 10/24/2008 03:40:00 AM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Crap. Now I'm in school, at a time I would usually have reached home long before. Well, as always, I skipped school again. This time was for a different cause, not for personal tiredness, but for work- project work that is. Spent the entire morning at Lenny's house, and cimpleted a relatively huge portion of the work. Alright, I didn't do much. So credits go to Zen and Xiuhui. (I'm supposed to be the idea generator, remember?=P). 
In the noon, rushed back to school for Temasek internship progrem briefing. I'm satisfied with the posting. It's some canine training, and everyone knows KOH TIONG WEI loves DOGGIES! YAY! Haha, and add on to that was that the entire attachment duration from 17th november unil 31st december was shortened til only until the 5th december. So that's a really cool news huh? Meaning I will be able to come back for ogl mass dance practice! Yay! Haha. And a small little saga took place just before the briefing. As I had skipped school, I had to make my presence in school at that hour (busy 3 noon) to be as unnoticed as possible, not by my classmates, moreover my tutors. As I was heading towards the venue, trying desperately to reach bao on phone (she turned off her mobile. Gr!), I saw Mr Quek having a small conference with one of my class's pw-group. He was sitting back-facing me, so I thought I had evaded him. Too bad Audrey saw me! Gosh! She's well-known for her loud character, and of course her loud laughters huh? So while hiding behind that pillar which barely managed to shield me together with my bag, I heard her laughters. I thought I might have siam-ed successfully, but the laughters persisted. I took a peep, and Quek was like showing his trademark face again. So I decided to confess, but as I walked to his side, he was like you still walk here to let me see you. He's trying to help me huh=P Not bad. But quite funny=P
To be continued...

Posted by Judah at 10/22/2008 03:33:00 AM

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Tuesday. Monday was last day of interview. Morning was fine. Experienced a short spell of ecstatism when Quek said my idea of the s-symbol is good. Interview was filled with much frustration and perhaps a little pressure. Went home to compile the list, and got filled with much much more frustration- lack of support, last minute dessimination of instructions etc. Gosh, hectic day, which ended only at 1 in the morning. Shacked!
Today is tuesday. Shackiness continued til morning. Had a long sleep until Theen Yew came. Wa! I still needed those sleep. Went for PE, which half of it was dedicated to their really long preaching. I wonder if they repeat any of the things that were said in the previous week. I mean I don't really listen, but how is it possible that they have so much to say. Ran two laps around the school, and as always, I felt like vomiting after that. I guess it's my method of breathing, could not regulate it well. I mean ex-asthma patient still has a lot to learn? Then skipped Chemistry lecture to do project work. I'm improving in handling dislikes I think=). God said love your enemy=). Then dozed off during math tutorial, and made myself a laughing stock. Went home after that, and forgot to take my pe shirt home. Haha, I'm gonna lose all my shirts. Cut my haird- wanted a really short hair cut, but haha, didn't dare. It's shorter than the other times though. Might go shorter next time. Apart from that, nothing much bah. Drop post again.

Posted by Judah at 10/21/2008 08:04:00 AM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Morning had a droip post before leaving for church. It was just random ranting of my sentiments, regarding so much things that had been bothering me so much. Maybe I'm really learning to let go...
Took a cab with Joel and family, and was dropped off at Tanah Merah to meet ChuWen and EeWen, two new visitors I've brought after Wanning. Yay=) Love that effort. Thank God for working through me. But again because of that, the three of us were late. So I didn't know we have to go in from the back, and was stopped by this two very amicable aunties, one of whom I think I recognise to be Joel's aunt. They gave the tow girls something to fill up before leading us to some seats beside a reverend I think. It's supposedly free seating, but since we were late, can't complain. Leg felt His presence I guess and that was really cool. Join us again k=) A pity she had to leave for some family things. Only me and EeWen went for cell group, and the discussion was cool. Eewen, for a first timer, was already mroe proactive than the oldys there=P So the discussion was cool, though we often digress beyond=P Wahahaha. It was still nice nevertheless, ended with my second public prayer=)
After that, we set off to meet up with the other project work members to go to XiuHui's house. Stayed there for the whole afternoon to do our project! Wa, didn't feel like I did a lot, but yet I was shacked. Like I always say, I'm the generator for ideas, like always=P So the record was 9 hours of intense chionging. What did I do? Opps=P Ok, I helped out a bit here and there, but the most significant part was the new symbol and poster that I've coem up with! Yay! Like that idea totally=) By the time I reached home, it was already 11+. Went online for a while, and eneded up sleeping at 1+. Tired!*

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Posted by Judah at 10/19/2008 07:12:00 PM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

my perspectives...

To be continued...
So after I came back from school, I fell into intense sleep. A really long one. Until evening when I finally woke up and left for Joel's house. My phone ran our of life and I was left stranded at his house's bus stop since I was like 1 bus ahead if him. Miscommunication got me up the wrong bus. Often, that would only be a waste of time. But tht day as I sat at the bus stop, many thoughts flashed through my mind. Particularly my self esteem. Well, I have alwasy have pretty high a seld esteem for myself. I mean I always thought my looks, my intelligence, my attitude, my perspectives are all above average. But that sit at that bus stop made me reflect a lot. Especially in the aspect of boy-girl relationship. In terms of attitude, I'm sure I didn't have the best of temper and the pbest of patience. Heys, it's obvious isn't it? So Joel and Zen are two of the many examples who are better than me in this aspect. Then results, I'm surely not the best available now, largely due to the lost to my motivation to move on. Then looks.. Haha, though it's not that important, but somehow it still does have an impact on me, and ya, so many hunks. Woohoo. So that make me a lousy person huh? The longer I thought, the more things flew in. Each individual has unique characters. But heys, there are only this many characters, and look at the world population size, are there really billions of characters to suit to each of us? Then it struck me, perhaps the unique thing does not lie in one character, andeach individual is an unique PERMUTATION of characters. Hm. Sounds more like it, huh? So while one person is good in A might not be good in B, and that makes the other person who is good in B a better person in that aspect. Then a third person who is lousy in both, might be good in C, which makes him a better person in C-field than the other two. So while this better things continue in life, it is further marginalised by human's perspectives. A might be good in personality, B might be good in academics, C might be good in relationship handling. But in this fallen world, one trait is given a higher emphasis than the others, as such it receives more attention and in turn more recognition. So that makes it the indicator for success? But we don't belong to this world, do we? So that short term of success, compared with eternity? That's really long huh? So while I might have one-sidedly thought that heys, I'm not too bad a person huh? So that should only be tentative, shouldn't it? But think again, she's an ace in the wordly stuffs, which I don't relly give a damn about, but what about her perspectives? I mean I can be like that or even better  if I want to. No doubt about my ability. But I don't want to. So that sets us apart? Perhaps we are really different? But yet the difference does not kill the love. So in another words, I'm being ripped apart. Haha, that kind of thoughts came randomly, but yet the effect does not stay randomly. So I'm impacted huh? Dealt a big blow at my right cheek, and I say thank you.

Posted by Judah at 10/18/2008 04:51:00 PM

Friday, October 17, 2008

For the past few days I have been returning home after extremely long school hours at times like 8 at night. That explains my lack of posts for the past four days, perhaps a record-breaking stagnance ever sice my promise for an entry per day. 
Wednesday was our dear captiain's birthday, the second of this month. Original plan was however forsaken due to the inability for any of us to compromise for that special day. Own commitments, project work, upcoming functions, etc! Hectic post examination activities. 
Thursday was filled with lots of frustration. Tiredness knocked on my door again, but conscience within me told me not to forsake my group for sleep. That day was my group's trial presentation, and it ended up bad again. Firstly, macbook didn't want to cooperate and our slides could not go on screen. Secondly, a lot of things weren't addressed in our presentation so it ended up quite bad. Thirdly, the teacher didn't capture some of our points- either we unclear or she never pay attention to it. Either way, it was bad. Thursday was also the first interview for ogls. After allocation of the time slots, I guess negligence to consider their lesson time was bad? But someone's anger management needs to be improved? I mean flaring up on irrelevant people and showing us black face didn't help things a bit, did it? And I sacrificed myself by skipping my last lesson in order to fill up the vacancies. Bad, bad! Haha, sounded like I so noble, but at least I feel that that's the very best I could do at that kind of situation arh? At least mroe practical than flaring up at random people. Interviewing was not as fun as anyone would expect, though some interesting characters were cute=) Interview day 1: Fine 
Friday was yet again fine. Had lectures and long breaks, but got so pissed by someone whom I've known for 5 years. I mean isn't it too insensitive to mention about someone's sad past. How would you feel if someone said something like this, "your girlfriend dumped you because you are stupid." Gosh! And that was in front of other people as well. Alright, Jesus said love your enemy as yourself. I will try to do so, but he's definitely classified under enemy now. Did podcast with friends (enemy was busy doing his project work. SELFISH!), and the product turned out fine. Not bad. Left his part away from completion. Mr Quek was also pissed with us because the level of our oral presentation is nowhere near to standard. So we've arranged appointments with him for consultation, which should be very helpful I hope. It was the second day of interview, and it was better than yesterday, except that first part when urgency was missing. I mean I saw people talking and chatting leisurely before I went for lesson. But when my lesson ended, and got delayed by my tutor's last minute urgent consultation, I realise the main personnels were not there. If time can be spared for chit-chat I don't see why. So was really totally pissed. Luckily the interview went well, and hope the applicants did not mind. Sorry for causing the delay in your slots. Most sincerely, *bow*.  
pm: If annon is coming to shoot me again, please save the hassle. I'm reading it because I know people will read, and there is a need to address to it. So if you are going to shoot me down again, save your breath. Thanks.
Saturday which is today. Had a super early morning appointment with Quek Quek. Discussion of OP was fine, and I think it's really helpful. Tomorrow will be full steam project work. It's only that last stretch. Way to go!
God bless.

如果最美好的已经留在心中,再多的选择也只会视而不见。

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Posted by Judah at 10/17/2008 07:27:00 PM

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Once upon a time...
Stared into the distant skyline,
And wondered how the other side was like
Thoughts and imaginations lifted me high
That hopes elevated but the oldys sigh
That square vision of one only path,
Lined with candified trees, remain no more
For the cruelty of growth had punched a dent into my innocent soul
The boy-boy's wish for the world of fantasy
Where simplicity held hand in hand a  beautiful life
But *poof* it burst as the dream bubble-fied. 
Craving for love, and loathing the schemes
Me-You-He-and She became terms of mere words
Reached my hand out to touch the sky
An every attempt puffed with cresent smiles
I hope I wish I crave I want
The bliss the rainbow to never faint
But as I woke up and grasped it tight
I opened my palm and see you poofed*
Gosh I thought the playful you
Hidden into my palm I once sought you
But now I know the hurting truth
That thought, that bliss, that smiles of yours
Have left me for good and left me for long
Diversified paths gave me the poke
That urged me forward and never stop
I now wished I could turn back,
But the ends chased up and disappeared
Opps, I tripped and cried and drowned
Help me my Heavenly Lord
For You promised to lead me out
Now I understand why the oldys sighed
As the loss was big Big BIG!
Child's soul, wild thoughts, and that genuine smile,
Searched my stupid pocket to find a useless ticket.
Now I'm the one to sigh
To be stab, and punched, and kicked, and slapped
Gosh, heal this lost world
And help them to retrieve the ability to DREAM
To demute the radio that plays the Bunny tune
To make them wish upon that falling stars
To child-ified their minds to watch the Wonka show!
The Oompa men will walk with me
To cast that magical stroke to candify those trees again
Then I will reach out my hand to try again
A grasp I clenched and drew back fast
For fear of losing what I've lost
And I slowly undo my stubborn fingers
To peep the fruit of that resurrection
And a glow dazzled my eyes
As an angel rose before me
And did the glamorous dance
Now I know my hopes are alive
As I have learnt the wonderful thing
To place everything in His hands
And be touched in every single way
God so love the world that He gave His only Son
So that those who believed in Him would not perish and have eternal life
In Jesus name I pray Amen
So to re-live the once upon a time
And chase the happily ever after.

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Posted by Judah at 10/16/2008 06:04:00 AM

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Maybe . . you shouldn't go for looks; they can deceive; don't go for  wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because  it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that  makes your heart smile. 
Quoted from EEwen's blog. Not bad arh=) But again. I thought that was the one that would make me smile. Haha Maybe it's more to that bah=) Anyway I'm getting out of it, really soon! Praise the Lord!

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Posted by Judah at 10/14/2008 06:55:00 AM

Rest seeked me. 
So I woke up normally today, and realised I was tired. Reluctance got over me, and I decided to sleep in longer. Like really, I didn't want to go school. Then, as I was on my way down, it flashed through my mind and struck me. It's very wrong of me to do that arh- to like skipped lessons due to mild fever? I mean what if it happened again in the future, when I'm finally in the workforce, am I going to skip work last minute like how I did today? Hm, really something worth pondering over. 
I only woke up at 10 today. That extra bit of rest lasted me through today, but again it's definitely not enough to make up for what had been lost and accumulated. Met up with Joel on the bus and had a good chat on the way. Then, we met up with bobo and bao and had lunch together. F.F rarely has the chance to get together, really. So there was some serious catching up during lunch. Well, I enjoyed it to bits. If only DaGe was able to join us, it would really have been a cool reunion. 
Rushed back to school for photo taking, and I was perspiring, like really frantically. So the guy kept reiterating that I'm drenched and perspiring a lot, and didn't let me take the photo, and kept stressing that I was wet and on and on. It really made me kind of embarrassed, especially when my entire class had already left, and a separate class was waiting outside, listening to whatever comments that guy had about me. Melted in discomfort and shame, seriously.
Went for mathematics after that, which was used for another probability game again. Didn't enjoy the lesson, though I think I like the one about the crystal ball. Back back back, didn't like the topic of probability, or rather the fact that people often relate it to luck. Haha. It somehow was driven in to me when during one of the youth, pastor Steven's casual remark on God's people don't need to depend on such thing called as luck. How true?! I mean God has the best planned for us, so there really leaves no room for luck arh! Praise the Lord! 
Later into the noon, I had meeting with my fellow games comm people. Thanks Weiling to be willing to stand in for me to be the IC for games comm. You've been a really great help, and very much appreciated arh! Thanks thanks thanks! Owe you big time. Digressions are always prevalent, but today's meeting was productive still. Not bad! Good job everyone! While I was busy having meeting, the rest of Alpha went to get the present that we have suggested. Hope Theen will like it=)
Wait, is he going to read this? But He doesn't visit my blog, does he? Hm.. *struggles*. Shake shake! don't care arh! Cross fingers he doesn't come in! That fruit basket! Opps, I revealed it=) Wahahaha. Yeap, that fruit basket is all our efforts arh! And I wrote a long personal message to you behind your card! Enjoy your birthday Theen=) Happy birthday in advance!
I promise that today will be the last time I skipped school! Promise!

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Posted by Judah at 10/14/2008 06:10:00 AM

Monday, October 13, 2008

God's words come in so many forms. After aroudn a month, I've embarked on my masterlife again. While I dozed off numerous times while doing it, and begun feeling bad and remorseful, God's great mercy set me free. I must have been really beaten out for being involved in so much things, yet not sure of where to start. Just as I was dwelling in my own faults, it suddenly dawned on me that God is doing miracles all the time, and it's often up to us to discover them. And today, He taught me to cherish and take care of my body really well. Despite numerous attempts from my friends to remind me of the fact that our bodies are the temple to the Holy Spirit, I have always overlooked this. Today's impact was made, and God made me go through the remorse and dozing off, to learn this, that I really need to rest. Learning point two, everything is in His hands, and decided in His perfect plan for us. So while I dozed off, I should not be too worried about it, because optimism is a christian trait. So I ought to learn then to dwell. Today's memory verse is John 15:7 "If you remain in Me and My words remain in you, ask whatever you want, and it shall be given you". How true?! Remain in His words and do not ever doubt, even at the worst of adversities, because He's always with us. 
Today I photocopied a copy of this week's material for the two wens. I hope that they will be useful for you people. Wanning, that applies to you too. Hope it relates to you well=)
God bless

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Posted by Judah at 10/13/2008 08:06:00 AM

So, I'm back as promised. Regarding if I've returned on a high note, I wouldn't dare comment on it. I mean, it's never good to have failed a promise. But nevertheless, the emo-ness was lesser. School ended at 4, and I had meeting with my fellow HRCs. Was totally listless, and that persistent digressings only helped to increase the frustration. I wanted to go home, and I'm sure everyone did too. So half and hour of meeting only ended after what seemed to be an hour. Yawn! Then within our house we had a short meeting too. Compiled the sign up forms, and Crys left. So Theen and me tried to brainstorm for some nice clan name, and dawned upon one. It's powerful and cool, but we are still sourcing. Feel free to suggest any=) We only got to leave at around 8. YAWN!!! Super tired. Shoo shoo emoness. 
Appreciation I crave; denial I loathe!

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Posted by Judah at 10/13/2008 06:51:00 AM

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Perhaps perhaps perhaps Suddenly I was overcame with this emoness. I mean there is no proper cause to explain this, but yet, I'm feeling it, deep down inside? Could it be the lack of sleep that's making me tired? Could it be the aftermath of the bad news? Could it be the denial that had persistently haunted me for months? Could it be my disappointment for the results? Could it be the dilemma in life that I'm facing? Could it be the struggle to find the motivation? Could it be the saddening trend of life today? Could it be... Perhaps perhaps perhaps.... I promise I will come back tonight on a high note, promise! That's my promise to God, to fulfill His words of optimism. Rainbow is the word...

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Posted by Judah at 10/12/2008 10:49:00 PM

By the way, today's my first public prayer too! Praise the Lord!

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Posted by Judah at 10/12/2008 08:10:00 AM

Contentment came, knocked on my door, gave me an overly-welcoming hug, pushed me away, and left me in the lurch of despair. 
It's Sunday. The day before I had asked a few people to give me wake up call. Looking back at all those Sundays that I've stood people up, I thought that was the safest measure I could at the very least take. I mean I had to, in order to minimise the chance of me oversleeping to below zero. Not bad, I managed to wake up on my own though. In fact, woke at 4+, wanted to go jogging, but decided to sleep in a while more. So final woke up time was 7, still very much earlier than I usually would. So thanks Faith, Joel and Wanning for that effort. I woke up earlier than all of you=P Today's an exciting day. It's the first time I brought someone to church. Recalling back to the first time Joel brought me along, I remember I was still kind of awkward and uncomfortabe, and God seemed as distant away as could imagine. Today, as a devoted seeker, I'm bringing people to church already. God's plan and work are wonderful! To be able to be a part of His work was even better! Wanning was nervous. Could tell from all her gesture. But she told me she liked it, and would be following up in the subsequent services! That's really great you know=) Joel intorduced her to the girls, and to my amazement, they mixed around real fast. I mean, soon I was the one being neglected. Recalling a few days ago, when she told me not to like neglect her during service, it's becoming the other way round, yea? But glad you made new friends. And regarding the speculations about me and her. Wahahaha. She's only my friend and only friend, nothing beyond. Haha. I got to know that a lot of people were curious huh? So clear it up for you all arh=P 
Went for lunch with the cell people, and by the time I finished, it was already 3+. Had wanted to go kayaking with brother in law, but he said it was low tide and the weather didn't seem that great. So in the end, everything was to much disappointment. It was postponed. By the way, the baked rice in Century Square food court was delicious! Much cheaper than Pastamania and Swensens, but presentation, variety, and taste wise were all comparable! Definitely worth the money. And and and, they combined eastern and western culinary- curry chicken baked rice. Tasted more like curry chicken rice, except for that few strands of dangling cheese. Yum yum, cheezy cheese. That dish definitely made me drool. That aroma! Whoosh! Went home, forgot what I did also. but became kind of emo towards night. Had a big blow from a big bad news. But that's only tentative. Together with the denial, the refusal to admit, it's utterly the contrast of morning's mood. Hm. I guess that's just as much bah. Read my label.

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Posted by Judah at 10/12/2008 06:52:00 AM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Each day came and went. Blink, blink, blink, it's Saturday again. Not one blink, not 2, but 3. I don't know why, but 3 always seemed to have the effect of a completion. It kind of makes things look full, or at least more full than it already is.
Woke up early in the morning. Days are kind of weird these days. When I had to wake up early in the past, I always oversleep. But now in my desperate attempt to make up for the amount of sleep I 've lost, I could not seem to sleep beyond that span. Set off for soccer, at a different venue. Hm. Didn't have the best of games again, largely because all who had agreed to come earlier on stood us up at the last minute. So game was really not fun at all. Reached home very early, probably the earliest amongst all the games I had.
Reached home at around 12+, and waited for sister to come. Been really long since last saw my two nephews. Still as playful as ever. Had lunch with them, and I had my favourite- mushroom soup. A satisfying meal. But soon, I dozed off. I'm pig arh! Haha. All the way until late afternoon. Saw them off, and came online. Hm. chatted with stupid leg and played some MSN games. Fun fun. Helped me kill lots of time. And chatted a lot! WA! I must find something useful to do soon!

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Posted by Judah at 10/11/2008 08:26:00 AM

Friday, October 10, 2008

It's finally friday. Alright, it's not finally, but the weekend has really dallied too long to come this time round. People say time flies when it's happy. But current time has been crawling, much smaller than anytime, especially any post-exam period. Yes, period of preparation for exam was sick, because of the suspense cum anticipation cum wait are all unbearable. But now is post-exam, a period of slack and rest. But nothingness is taking over me. I dreaded going home everyday to do nothing. I mean there really isn't a lot of things to do, is there? Podcast? No one wants to do it; geography project? Who cares? Now is really not the time for work, and definitely not the mood. So when games become no longer appealing and entertainments no longer distracting, nothingness takes over. That's life? Rephrase: That's post-exam life in JC?
School was one of the most productive every since promos. Had some new geography knowledge and physics stuffs. Got back results, and it's an unsatisfying bddde. Compared to some, it's kind of good already? But compared to others, and of course my own expectation, it's nowhere near it just yet. Hm... But again, considering the amount of effort that I've put in, I should be contented with this bah. Until now, I still haven't found the motivation to get started. It's like after promos, but I'm still laxed? Gosh! I need motivation, like seriously.
Had project work lunch. Teresa joined us. Talk talk talk. Alright, now I'm not in the mood to blog also. So ya. Sianz! 
Only good thing- I changed my blog skin and song. Love them. That's all I guess...

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Posted by Judah at 10/10/2008 07:47:00 AM

Thursday, October 9, 2008

I'm sure God has the best planned for us, but it's cruel. While I'm trying really hard to get over it, God puts stuffs in my life to make me remember it. Services, and destiny. God, please give me the strength to overcome this. And even if it's the right one, I've been forsaken, so God, please help me get through it. It's hard to stay in this situation and one-sidedly clinging on to it. I'm slipping every moment. God, I need the strength. In Jesus name, Amen....

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Posted by Judah at 10/09/2008 06:59:00 AM

To rest is to walk a longer distance. As I grow older, the mommy's boy within me diminishes at a rate of a huge fraction every second. The old me becomes no longer familiar and it's a weird feeling. On one side you feel the desire to do it, and the other side conscience always holds us back. Though, desire beats conscience many a times. 
This morning was packed with much tiredness. Mom must have felt the same that she only woke me up at 6. After much deliberation, I decided to skip school, or at least half of it for today. Reason 1: I'm exhausted. Reason 2: First part of the day's gonna be a waste of time. Reason 3: late bus is never nice to squeeze in. So after bathing, I crawled back into the comfy bed and slept in all the way until 9. It's been some time since I last had a nice long sleep, but this was never enough. I have forsaken too much sleep for all the work, fun, blog, and chats. Hm. Seriously have to find some time to make it all up. At around 11 I set off to make my ez-link card at the branch at Pasir Ris, and it's finally done. Hm. Surely felt better than without ez-link. It's just that inconvenience. Went back to school, and saw Zen sleeping in the HC room. Didn't wake him up, and since I was still tired, I slept in the other couch. Hm. That's that bah. Happy Birthday Zen. Hope you like the pencil case- my idea, EeWen's effort=) Happy birthday again. Lessons in the afternoon were much more useful, at least I felt so. So I was really happy to have not wasted my morning in school=)
For PE, we played field soccer. The ball cannot really roll, can it? The pitch arh, not good. Made some good slides, and many other unnecessary ones. Got to stop sliding, and learn how to mark properly. Didn't play well today, but it was still a good game. Time to improve. Had bubble tea before going home, and I guess that's that. 
I'm shacked, really need some rest. So the mood was already half-emoing itself already. But when I saw that tag in the blog, I entered full phase emoness once again. I mean it's that annonomous guy again, and I hate it when people don't use real identity. Hm. This guy seems to be having some issue with me, because it was never good things whenever he/she tags. Yup, I do complain, and I'm human. Perspective subject refers to the style of marking differs between every tutor. And since there's the possibility of me getting a good tutor, but yet I got a different perspective one, ain't I unlucky? Ok, I didn't mean any offence. Been wanting to defend myself, but to avoid any unnecessary conflicts, I only replied ~lalala~, but ya, the grievance is always there. So I'm addressing it? Total emo-ness. If contents not appealing, please ignore it. It's a life journal which I made an effort to update everyday, so why can't it contain my complaints?

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Posted by Judah at 10/09/2008 06:07:00 AM

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Today is Wednesday. 
Left for school earlier than the normal Wednesdays because there was this photo-taking session. Stood people up again, as I had promised Joel Tong and EeWen to go for morning prayer earlier on this month. But photo-taking session was fun? Normal lessons were replaced by many lectures for confirmation of scripts today, and I got back my general paper. Comprehension was a great leap forward, having score 23.5 this time round. My previous tests were all in the low 10+ region. So I was happy, particularly with the 3 mark I scored for application question, which everyone on average scored 0.5 mark. So it's considerably high. But the joy did not continue into when I received my composition. I had so much ranting and stuffs. Sorry to the people whom I messaged to complain. Must be a whole chunk of grievance. It was because I only got 17.5, compared to the 27 I had during the JCTs. I mean the style was the same, and content about the same, and the marker didn't even read my whole paragraph before labelling the first sentence irrelevant. I mean the elaboration is at the back! And language, she gave me 8.5, the lowest I ever got in JC life! Wa!!! Pissed. That's why I always said GP is a perspective subject. While all of us read the broader perspective, that of some of the GP tutors remained as narrow as ever. So that wide range of mark is inevitable huh? I mean, I have friends who had red remarks and corrections all over the work, but their language still had 11, which was entirely crap! Nevermind, consider me unlucky to be marked by her. 
Afternoon, I skipped the last period of the day(Physics) to go and make my ez-link card. Stupid card went missing yesterday. Luckily I had Phay and Zen with me. Daoed Phay through the entire journey which was fun. But had a long nice chat with her about relationship towards the end. Mostly me ranting though, but still it was nice=) Thanks. Went to make ez-link card with Zen after that, but they require me to produce some identification which apparently I did not have any with me. So I could not make mine. After Zen was done with his, we went to whitesands for his wallet hunt, but to no avail. So we left the place together soon after. Had another nice long chat with him on the journey and came to know about a big secret! Woots! 
At home, I tried to search for the stuffs that I needed. Really wanted to make my card today, but could not find any of the things that I needed. Tried calling mom, but she turned off her phone as usual! Pissed! If you always off your phone, then what's the point of bringing it?!
Dozed off in living room after that. Woke up for dinner at around evening, and started blog-hopping. Then something funny happened. 
I was tagging Krys' blog when the error popped up and asked me to confirm that I am a human, which was like at first sight gave me the stun! What would I be if I'm not human! Dage told me it's some precaution for spyware initiated program, but still it's funny. That incident sparked off like 12 windows of conversation at my side bar, which kept me busy for quite some time. Haha. Nice chatting. Had a very long chat with chuwen, and shared a lot of things about God's work! It was cool to know about other people's perspectives and sentiments towards that relationship, and it was cool talking about it. Then Wanning also confirmed that she's going to church with me this Sunday! So that's many cool things happening at one go. Many other people whom I've invited before are showing positive signs. And even my sister, who was like reluctant to go when I told her the previous time. She was like I feel like going also. So that's really like miracle? God doing His work through our lives. And I feel really happy for it. Praise the Lord! Enjoy Logan's video below. It really rocks!
Perhaps that's why many people say christians are oppressive. It's the way we talk? I thought maybe we could be like less pressing. Use question instead to make people think, rather to give facts and force them to accept. After all seekers do not necessary have that same level of faith and knowledge. Yup. Hope it will come to realisation to SOMEONE.

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Posted by Judah at 10/08/2008 09:30:00 AM

Few months ago I posted this video, and now I'm reposting it again. Guess that's how it has impacted my life? Enjoy:

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Posted by Judah at 10/08/2008 08:29:00 AM

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Tuesday already, and yet I'm still shacked. I kind of could not find the rest that I have needed so much. PE lesson was free game ,and we played field soccer. Slippery slippery* Had 5 to 6 chances to speed down one flank, but everytime fail to convert. Super sad! After that were lessons. Lessons were normal today, rather very much a waste of time, considering that most of the lessons were not given the attention that should be paid. Today I got back my Geog and I scored 53 for it. Should be top 10 in H2 geog, and I beat Kah, which is like a bit "Wow!". So I was happy. School ended at 2, but I had to stay back for the chemistry add-on period to go throgh the paper. So when the morning's technical fire drill sparked off, there was no sign of pissed in the teachers' face. They had already known it long ago, and that additional period was to make up for it. What perfect calculation! Why must they be so calculative, when our school is already so much ahead of other schools. The two-periods worth of break allowed me to play game in the HC room. Now I'm regretting- should have used that to sleep. That make-up was kind of crap, since I practically drifted off. After that had HC general meeting, the first of its kind since the beginning of our term. All the houses were there, making the room looked a little under-sized. Discussion was fun, and it was an effective short bonding session which was good. Went home after that, and lost my ez-link card on the bus. Must have slipped out of my pocket! Crap! If pockets are designed so shallow to make people lose things, then why sew it there?!? I still think my pouch is still in some hidden slits beside the chair I sat on just now, despite the operator saying that they've found nothing. Haiz, meaning I would have to make new card at Pasir Ris, if not Bueona Vista! Crap! That's really far!!!!

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Posted by Judah at 10/07/2008 08:13:00 AM

Monday, October 6, 2008

Today is Monday, finally returned to school for normal period. I woke up shacked in the morning, and went into HC room almost straight away. Took a one hour nap on the bench in one corner before proceeding to the assembly ground for normal assembly. It's been sometime since normal lessons, and I've almost forgot that first period of the day is a free period. So all the people who don't take economics sat at one table and practically slacked. I tried to read the bible, but my concentration span was disrupted. 
Had many lectures and tutorials afterwards, and collected back the exam scripts for numerous subjects, namely mathematics, physics, chemistry, which got me 50, 72.5, and 48.5 respectively. Hm. If it's back in secondary school, I would probably be swearing and feeling super discontented. But for JC lives, I'm kind of happy with that, maybe not so much for math. I was expecting higher. When I got back my chemistry, I was faced with a big struggle. I realised as man grows older, one would desire for more. My paper was written that I had 50.5 mark, one of the better ones in class. So I was kind of happy, especially when the paper was one which I had zero confidence at first, but when I did the calculation, I realised I was awarded 2 extra points. In the past, I would not have faced with this kind of struggle. But now I wanted to keep that 2 unintentioned marks. The desire was stronger when that 2 marks matters between 40+ and 50+. But God is good. He put in me the courage to overcome that temptation. Praise the Lord! =)
After that I went home and did my I&R, which apparently many other schools have not yet started. TJC's kind of rushing many things. Stressed, but God is there for me. Tomorrow's Faith last paper. I pray that, Father, You will give her the wisdom and energy so that she will be alert and interprete all the questions correctly. In Jesus name, Amen. All the best, Faith=)

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Posted by Judah at 10/06/2008 09:44:00 AM

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Hm... Regarding the using your body parts type your name one, I pretend I never see. It's kind of er. Stupid arh? Haha. Long quiz indeed, but as always I'm nice. Won't tag anyone=)

List four random items you have.

Laptop

Good memories

Handphone

Ambition and confidence

2. Have you ever slept in the back of a car?  Duh. Of course

3. Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it? Same like Joel? 1 month ago considered so?

4. List four people that you look up to the most.

Jesus (Unconditioned love)

Pastor Steven (passion in Christ)

Steve Irwin (passion in belief)

Tevez (tenacity)

5. How many pets do you own as of now?. Nah. I want a husky though

6. Which do you prefer white or black? thye complement each other (neither and either)
7. Who is your most played character? cloneship280108

8. Choose one or the other, not both: Being stuck on an island with a friend. or Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances.

5 acquaintances ( that's where new friends are made)

 9. Name three aspects that tell who you are.

-Hyper mood-swinger

-Deep thinker

-Child-like character

 10. If you could have a power what would it be?

fly

11. Who was the last person you talked to?

Joel -good night

12. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?

God

13. Write down the first five words that pop into your head.

God

sky

fantastic five

Faith

Fun

14. What’s one thing you wish you could do better?

 Handling situation and relationships

15. Do you like the way you are?

 Not too bad, but can be better

16. Choose, summer or winter: Winter bah, if only Autum is in the options

17. Rain or snow?

Snow ( one of my trademark's a snowman)

18. Water or ice?

 water (sound of water flow is beautiful)

19. List two odd things about yourself.

 Mature yet childish

confused character (double character swopping)

20. Which are two of your bad habits?
Skipping sleep/ meal

Over engrossed in games many a time

21. What’s 1 of your biggest pet peeve?

insensitive people

Now list 6 people who should do this quiz:
Faith
WanNing
Crystal
Muhammad
Krystal
FangXiong 
(Hm. just realise few guys actually blog)

23 .list 15 people you have mind now:
1. Joel
2. Baohui
3. Daniel
4. Bo Jun
5. Faith
6. WanNing
7.Kaizen
8.TheenYew
9.Crystal
10. Krystal
11. Muhammad
12. KahChin
13. Shiyan
14. Teresa
15. EeWen

Have u ever hugged 1? (Joel)

Yea, best of friends

What’s the best memories you have of 10? (Krystal) Er. Cheerleading. Best partner=P

Why are you friends with 9?(Crystal)

Wa. Long story. OGM, cheerleading, House comm, HRC=P

when’s the next time you’re gonna see 6? (WanNing) Tomorrow in school. Cannibal don't eat me wor=P

Tell something juicy about number 15? (EeWen) Huh? Juicy arh? Can't think of any. She's super tall though

What do you like about 8? (TheenYew)

at least he cares about the house 

Is number 4 attractive? (Bo Jun) I supposed so. He's charismatic=P

What was your first impression of 7? (Kaizen) What is he? Japanese?

How did you meet 3? (Daniel) NASS 1e4, 2r4, 3r1, 4r1 (5 years of friendship)=)
Do you think 13 could kill someone? (Shiyan)
doubt so?

Is 11 your best friend? (Muahmmad) Not the best, but good one=)

Have you ever kissed 5? (Faith) yea...

Do you think 2 has a crush on you? (Baohui) Hm. too close for that le=P

Who do you spend the most time with? Hm. Joel?
What is the last thing you did with 1? (Joel) stay over at his house

Have you ever hung out with 2 outside of school? (Baohui) Duh?!? Are you questioning F.F's closeness=P

 Have you ever slept with 5? (Faith)

No...

Do you think 6 is sexy? (WanNing) Er. Cannot say arh. Later get killed=P

Have you ever liked 7? (Kaizen) Closest friend in Alpha. You say leh?
Where is the last place you went with 8? (TheenYew) HC room for GM
Are you real close to 9? (Crystal) Considerably, not too bad bah
What kind of relationship do you have with 10? (krystal) HC =) 

Would you ever kiss 11? (Muhammad) No way!

Have you ever been to the movies with 12? (KahChin) Hm. I think so. Went to watch X-men 3 bah?

Have you ever gotton in trouble with 13? (Shiyan) Hurt her feeling when put down her work?

would you ever make a move on 14? (Teresa) Doubt so?

what do you and 15 talk about the most? (EeWen) Er. relationships bah?

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Posted by Judah at 10/05/2008 08:51:00 AM

Corrections to previous entry: meeting ended at 940 not 840. Continuation: At night, I went to Joel's house to stay over again, and now I finally have Fifa 09 installed in my computer. Can play. Wonder how long it's going to take me to grow bored of the game.
Today's Saturday. Had service in the morning. In liason with Children's Day, the Agape kids led the worship and presented several skits to enhance the sermons today. Worshipping song was nice. One of them goes something like a "Be like a tree, planted in the water...", the other one is "I love you, I love you, I love you...", and the other 2 which didn't require us to dance were some believe song, and God is Awesome song. All of them are nice, but I still prefer the ones which made us dance. The kids were really cute. Haha, and finally I know the little girl's name- Olivia. Haha. She like my cyclops bag=) Haha. She's cute. The other guy, I forgot the name, was a good reader- he read well, and the indian boy, enog or something one. All very cute=). Today's sermon taught us to let go of the string to the bell so that it would stop ringing. Perfect application to our lives, when we encounter with adversities, it tend to linger in the mind for sometime. Pastor Steven said, "learn to forgive the hurt, but don't forget the wrong". Forgetting the hurt would get us out of sufferings, and allow us to forgive more readily. Learn to forgive others, because He first forgive us. It kind of struck me, and I became sad. Because it was with much reluctance, even to loose grip of the rope. 
So I left immediately after service in order to evade someone. Went to Paya Lebar for pw meeting. Was 1 hour early, so played some fifa until they come. It rained super heavily, and XiuHui's dad came to fetch us to her house. First time saw apple desktop. The CPU is inbuilt, kind of cool. Then took bus home. Me and EeWen missed our stop, and decided to take all the way until Pasir Ris to change bus. Supposedly a long ride, but when I played Fifa on the way, the journey ended as soon as one game ended. Came home straight after, and the sadness persisted.

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Posted by Judah at 10/05/2008 07:40:00 AM

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Joel showed me their school's mass dance competition. Looks kind of impressive, so I'm putting it up here. Alpha ad whichever house people who comes here, we aim to be better than that ok=) Enjoy:

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Posted by Judah at 10/04/2008 06:54:00 AM

Friday, October 3, 2008

Thursday was a hectic day. We returned to school, spent much time doing up he script before finally getting dismissed at 1230. Sports component of Alpha HC has come together finally to discuss the sports event next year. As usual, digress a lot. Til a point that I became quiet that everything went back on course. Was pissed, especially didn't feel comfortable in the room. After the meeting, I dozed off at the couch while waiting for my interview for Temasek Internship Program. There was a feeling of wanting to withdraw from it at the very last minute, but the word "quiter" kept ringing in my head. I am no quitter. As for why I wanted to withdraw, I didn't know either. There's definitely no problem with my confidence level, but I just didn't feel like going at the last minute. Despite that, I went in nevertheless. The interviewer questioned me of my choice for veterinary science since I do not take A levels Biology. I defended myself by saying that JC level's biology only focuses in micobes which might not be relevant, and she insisted that knowledge in biology is pre-requisite, and since I have no biology background... But heys, I did take biology in O levels standard and I even scored an A for it ok! Such insistence when she didn't really have the knowledge in that field herself. Life science does not equate biology and only that. 
After that, helped out with the people to do up Alpha's notice board. Finally something's up. Did EOM and script for OP through the night. Totally shacked after a sleepless night. Friday in school is the continuation of the script. Preparing script is definitely much harder than imaginable. 5 hours through the night, and I only managed to barely finish half of it. Left the remaining to the others while I took many short naps. Naps only gave me more headache though. In the noon, our group was the first group to proceed with our oral presentation rehearsal. Headache gave me double vision, and my part was not smooth. On the whole, our entire presentation was very much screwed up, largely due to my insistence in some parts of the powerpoint. Haiz. My mistake. Shall learn from that! Quek Quek gave me the permission to go home at 1 inthe noon, because my group member saw me dying, and he agreed that I looked dying. So I went home early, and had a nap, which was definitely not enough. 
Evening, I woke up for dinner, and stoned all the way until 2 in the morning. There goes my sleep again. The next day was a Saturday, and I had HRC meeting just now at 8 in the morning. Gosh! HRC became intensive arh=P So left house at 710, and was kind of early. By the time I reached home, computer got a little bit heat up, which made me panicked for a while. Sent Theen the football manager. Hope he enjoys it=) Then, proceeded on with the meeting. For the first time, I started taking notes. Not bad=) Meeting ended at 840, much earlier than expected, an I went home straight after. Had a good nap. But still I am tired.

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Posted by Judah at 10/03/2008 07:41:00 PM

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Fell in love with another song. But cannot find the mp3 version. Any kind soul who has it please notify me. Thanks. So good to me by Darrell Evans. Here's another nice song. Enjoy:

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Posted by Judah at 10/02/2008 12:26:00 PM

Restarted Audition again. Fell in love with this slow song, my first Thai song=) enjoy: (My Love is You)MV รักฉันเรียกว่าเธอ Kamikaze

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Posted by Judah at 10/02/2008 07:42:00 AM

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Wednesday. 
Selamat Hari Raya! Today's the annual festival. For our muslim friends, the fasting period is finally over, and they can enjoy the delicious delicacies today. Early in the morning, Joel woke me up, and I left for soccer. Went over to Joel's place to take bus together to the soccer court. It rained in the morning, so Kah asked me to borrow the mop from the uncle at the basketball court to clear the water. I cleaned a small area, before passing the mop to Kah, whom broke the mop soon later. In the end, he had to compensate 7.20 bucks for it. Haha, misfortune. I was hoping there wouldn't be as much people there today, but turned out to be a total of 8 teams, meaning each would have to wait for 6 other teams before playing. Adding to it was the fact that I played extremely lousily today, and that spoilt a big part of my mood. So when Joel had to leave at 1230, I decided to make a move with him. My focus span is giving way. Mistook 27 and 31 for bus 21. Gosh! I'm losing focus! We were waiting for bus 21 at the bus stop, but boarded bus 39 when it came. However, we failed to realise that we were going in the wrong direction, towards interchange until we were on the bus. Concession saved me that extra 45 cents. So we had to change to another bus from there.
Evening, my neighbours brought us food for the celebration. Lots of fragrance from the curry. Had a good dinner, before setting off to airport to meet Lenny for oral presentation meeting. Met him at Mcds, but decided to do it outside, as the space was cramped. Did up quite a reasonable amount of stuffs, before battery ran low, and Lenny set home. I proceeded on to the 3rd floor to look for sister. Took me quite some time to spot her since she was not in the shop. Finally, I'm back at Coco Tree after having left there many months ago. It's still the same old place, but the staffs were all new. Kind of awkward since I didn't know them. Nevertheless, despite having not worked for a reasonably long time, my gauge of gummies is still accurate. Managed to weigh out exactly 100g of gummies=)
She didn't want me to wait for her, so I left soon after. At night, chatted with cannibal, and might be bringing her to church. Haha, thank God for opening up wanning's path and heart, so that she will get her chance to know You more. Hope that You will continue to reveal yourself to her, and convince her that You are the one true God. Amen! =) 

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Posted by Judah at 10/01/2008 11:01:00 AM