I'm sure God has the best planned for us, but it's cruel. While I'm trying really hard to get over it, God puts stuffs in my life to make me remember it. Services, and destiny. God, please give me the strength to overcome this. And even if it's the right one, I've been forsaken, so God, please help me get through it. It's hard to stay in this situation and one-sidedly clinging on to it. I'm slipping every moment. God, I need the strength. In Jesus name, Amen....
Like what was written in Joel's as well as Bao's blog, second day is finally down, so is our third paper. Today, we had geography while the economics students took their paper too. Bao and me left for school really early, probably on the first bus. When we reached school, we decided to have a light breakfast from Tema-snack. Wheat food are not for sale until next week when normal schooling finally resumes. Hence, I could only have a burger. It tasted not bad with that cheese, though I would very much prefer rice stuffs. Then we spent the morning at the atrium doing some last minute revision, where bao panicked a bit for forgetting to bring tie, but later realise that there's no official assembly today.Geography paper was relaively average for me. Although I don't do well most of the time despite feeling the same ease when doing the paper. Until now, I've already known some mistakes which I've committed for the paper. I reached home at around 11 in the morning as I only had one paper today, and started playing Cabal in an attempt to sooth the stress level. I didn't feel very stressed up though. At noon, I went to have a nap and only woke up at 6 in the evening to take my dinner. After that I've been trying to recap whatever I've revised for chemistry for the past one week. Many information seemed to be already displaced by other information of other subjects, particularly Geography, but after hours of studying, I think I managed to retrieve most? By the way, I studied all the way until 12.30, an amazing 6.5 hours of intense mugging.Tomorrow's Chemistry, and followed by Mathematics on Friday before everything comes to an end. On one side, I wanted this to end very much so that I won't have to be pressed for time anymore. On the other, I don't want it to end so fast because I was afraid that I might not be able to let go of what I might thought that I've already did. Anyway, good luck to everyone on everything.God bless...
Is it always human nature to regret after doing it? I'm regretting now. The same feeling is creeping up in me.She told me that before.But I pretended well.Time passed and feelings grew.Is that liking or loving?Only I know.Yet, I'm still confused.I dared not answer thou.Can there ever be a me-and-you?I'm afraid to make you tear.Struggles within the heart.Struggles within myself.To tell or to hide, I wouldn't know which to abide.Perhaps time will drain the feeling,I shall let it go.Only afraid to regret 30 years down the road.To've given you a miss,When I could've told you so.Do I love you or do I not?I'm driven crazy by my thoughts.