Today is Tuesday, the official day break after that hectic promotional examinations. So I re-started playing audition again, through the late hours. The touch hasn't come back yet, though I did managed to top the score for a few games. I'm still not good enough to convert all the cools to great. Then at 4 in the morning, I went for my morning jog again. Ran 11 rounds around the park, and sprinted for about 100m. The fitness is coming back, at least I don't feel as asthmatic already. By the time I reached home it's already late 4. I bathed and turned in straight after. Woke up at 11, and had to set off for project work meeting at Bugis. Friends helped me configure my laptop, and created a singtel account. Finally, my laptop is able to connect to the internet already! Yay! So we headed to the national library. My first time there, and it was cool! Very huge, very tall, very spacious, very cohesive, very peaceful ,very nice, and very amazing! The lift was cool too- kind of fast. Can feel a little of weightlessness when descending from 11th floor. The entire afternoon, I only managed to come out with the outline of the oral presentation. Set off for home at 4, and played, or rather, stoned for the remaining of the day. I feel super shacked, and very largely, sad. Post-promos is supposed to be fun and enjoyable, but I'm not enjoying it. Nothingness spoils all fun. I need to do something!
Friday, Saturday, Sunday, followed by today- 4 days of torment.
Friday was mathematics paper. Finally we had a morning paper, and math was definitely not something I had much hope for. Even though the standard had been raised since long, and there were many questions which I could not do, I was still kind of ecstatic when the paper was over, probably very much because in light of yesterday's killer chemistry, the math one was relatively much more do-able. A little something happened during the paper which almost scared the hell out of my heart. Hlafway through the paper, at around 10, the blur vision from far made me though it was already 11, making me panicked because I had numerous undone question. Fortunately, it was little sotong's prank on me, and I managed to complete most. A few unsure answers, but overally good. Should be able to secure a C, at least I very much hope so! Then the entire day was spent playing.
Our school's system was kind of screwed up. Monday was a study break, wednesday a interval, and as a result, our last paper was pushed back to the following monday, which kind of spoilt my weekend. I mean, who wouldn't want it to be over fast. Thus, Saturday, despite the last paper, I went to play soccer with my friends. This time, I didn't play well. Very bad=(. Then we had lunch at a new hawker. Frankly, I still very much prefer the old one where the tom yam soup remain as good as ever. The new one was fine though, but not good enough. Went over to Joel's place at night. He's leading such carefree life- laughters, slack, games, while my focus span had to be planted into the thick pile of physics notes.
Sunday went to service, and I like the songs again. Last week's ones were those that I never hear before, so cannot sing. But this week, I sang out loud. Love the song. Noon, went to Bao's house for a last day chionging for promos. Studied a bit, made notes, then had dinner. Bao cooked for me some noodles. And it was my first time seeing someone cooking two separate packs of the same noodles separately. Normally, people would cook them together. So that's how global warming occur. And adding salt to the wound was that the second attempt was met with some obstructions. She could not turn on the gas tap at the second attempt, which made the entire scene super hilarious. Haha, thank God it turned on in the end anyhow. The noodles was nice though. Thanks xiao zhu! Later into the night, I went home to bathe, and set off to meet bao again to go to Joel's house. Plan was to stay over at Joel's house again, and go school together the following day to take the paper. Late night revision was bad! Spoilt weekend was even worse.
Monday morning was fine. Joel woke me up at 930. He told me the way I slept and bao slept very different- my mouth closed, hers opened. Wahaha! I'm more well-mannered=P Then I followed Joel to go and get breakfast for his granny and all of us. The 3 of us shared a pack of noodles, and it was nice. Then, continued to mug, adn I lost 5-nil in that one and only game of pro=-evolution soccer. =(. Finally it was 12, and we left for school. Initially we thought we were going to be late, but it turned out we were relativey early. I was so looking forward to the end that I even thought that I might count down during the last 10 seconds of the paper. MCQ wsa hard and I thought I was going to blank out. Thank God, section B onwards was good. But I didn't have time to do the 10s thing, and had a 2 mark question left blank. And it was finally the end!
It has ended!
Rain impeded us from going home for all relaxation. Bus ride was long, but Bao was there to accompany me. But I realise post examination was not at all as exciting after all. =(
Yesterday's unfortunate encounter in the two most hectic papers had left me in immense tremor, that I was constantly fearing of the possibility to retain, despite the small chance each year. But Chemistry was so difficult that I couldn't help but to think that way. Thus, I revised all the way until 2 in the morning before turning in. That gave me much peace of mind, having studied and revisited the entire year's work to prevent any potential slip of mind.
As a result of the late night sleep, morning was a tiring one, and I soon regretted having done that, as my mind kind of blanked out minutes before the exam. Mugging mood in school is high, that everyone seemed to be doing their last minute stuffs. I was an exception though, pretty much due to my strong belief that the stuffs were already up there in my head, and as long as the question is there to stimulate my brain, that amount of knowledge should be enough. Nevertheless, when friends probed me with questions which I could not answer, panic effect always threatened to shake my confidence.
Soon, we were finally in the hall. First question got me stuck, and for a while I thought it's gonna be another goner, a well-designed killer after the Chem paper. Fortunately, the subsequent questions were more do-able. There was a little twist in between. The paper was a 3 hour one. But having been placed at one of the last few seats at the end of the hall, the sight of the clock wasn't exactly good. So after what I thought was a very long period had passed, I looked up at the clock, couldn't quite make out the numbers, but the position of the hands gave me a big scare. I thought time was up when the clock struck 10. I thought it was 11 already, and by then I still had 2 or 3 questions left. So I panicked for a while, and all my thoughts got blocked up. The more I wanna do, the more the stuffs won't come out. So I hastily hurried through many questions. I didn't look up at the clock anymore, largely because time didn't permit. It was only until 1015 that I looked up again, and realised 15 minutes had passed. I was puzzled for a while because 15 minutes allowance was indeed a little more than acceptable. Then, it suddenly struck me that "heys, it's not yet 11!" Math made me blur=P
Despite not being able to find the solution to numerous question, I thought the paper was overall a do-able paper. So when the paper finally ended, I was on a high mood. Yes! One more to go, and that's it.
Posted by Judah at 9/26/2008 11:20:00 AM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
It's been a day of hectic mugging. Maybe not so, having played a little bit in the morning. Nevertheless, the majority of the day was spent doing revision. Particularly Chemistry. I had thought that a night should be enough for my geography revision, and I was hoping to really do well for Chemistry. Had high hopes for it, so it was also the subject that I have put in the most amount of efforts, read through at least 5 times. So when night came, and I started recapping geography, during which I panicked, like really. I couldn't finish the entire content, and as it went later into the night, my thoughts gave way obediently to tiredness readily. I could not absorb at all, and turned out I didn't understand a lot of things. Luckily clone was there to give me a peace of mind, that I eventually managed to pull through. Thank clone, thank God!
Today's finally the judgment day. Although examinations begun 2 days ago, and yesterday we had a break, I only considered today to be the one day, that day that really put everything to intense challenge. After a week, it's also been quite sometime since I have to wake up really early, and go to school. Morning ride was fine, and morning sky was beautiful, and the atmosphere peaceful. Having reached the school as early as 630, and being the early hours in the morning, and being the duration of test for the not common paper-geography, the school was rather quiet. Nevertheless, my mind was not able to enjoy the same amount of peace. Geography flooded my mind. Yes, flooded, or to accentuate the extent, it tsunami-ed my mind. It was a period of fear and anticipation. I just wanted to get it over and done with. First question wasa picture which shows some mass movement. coincidentally, that was the chapter I had given out much; and also something which I have talked about when we were entering the examination room. That was how coincidental that was. So we were required to identify what kind of mass movement it was. At first I thought it was mud flow since it looked kind of smooth, then I saw the word rock debris and changed it to rock fall, but after observing the layer I cancelled again and changed it to land slide. Hm. Many dilemma. DRQs were fine, especially after spending almost the entire night studying atmosphere and it actually came out. Only set back was in the last piece of the DRQ about population. The statistics about overall annual and stuffs were making me frustrated. Essays were kind of killer. My first response was to flip when I saw the first essay. Yes, I was kind of stunned. Didn't really know either of the options. So I chose to do human geog first. Instinct got me to choose B but when I did it halfway, I lost track. Looked like I have just been ranting over unnecessary content. So I put that aside first, and proceeded back on with my physical geog. First part was a dumping of whatever I remembered, since I was not exactly sure how to answer it, having missed that out during my revision. Fortunately the second part was well substantiated with some examples. Kind of satisfied, though the exact statistics refused to come out. Then I went back to the last part of the human geog essay. I thought I did well too, until I realise I confused two case studies of Shell in Nigeria and rice company in Ghana. As such, I wrote Ghana for both, and my friend told me the question specifcally asked for one specific example ONLY. Thus, that means it's pretty much of a goner too.
After that went to have brunch with friends and returned to school's library for last minute revision. When I entered the exam hall atmosphere was kind of tensed. And I didn't feel good. 20 MCQs were required of us to complete them all within 30 minutes, and apparently a lot of us didn't manage to do so. I finished though, but with much approximation. Couldn't get much of the exact values, so could only make do with the closest options available. Learnt from previous mistake, I decided to go with the flow. Previously I did section C before B and scored highest for C but insufficient time made me score the lowest for B in the class. But it didn't help much too. I was not confident with all the answers. All are those that I think I know and jsut filling up what I thought is correct, but not confident. In the end, I didn't manage to complete the paper anyway. Bad bad disappointment. I had such high hope for it, but I doubt I'm ever gonna do well. If it ever gets me a pass, I would be more than happy.
Tomorrow's mathematics, and the fear of retaining that struck everyone has struck me too. I'm nervous, and very much scared. Even if everything is in His hands already the thought of having to stay back another year sends chill down my spine every now and then. I must really do well for tomorrow. All the best guys! God bless.
This will be next blog song, be touched. Coming up next: We are the Reason. He loves us, that He went through so much, just for us.
As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love
I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him
He is my reason to live
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Dong! Promotional examinations are finally here. The first paper we had today was General Paper, and it was an afternoon paper. In the morning, I woke up at 9, went online in an attempt to find some materials to read up on, at least to enrich my content, as experiences had taught me well that language is not a problem for me, but content is. But fact proved that to be a failed attempt. Having on the laptop, I did my usual routine-checked mail, browsed goal.com, check the price of my fantasy premierleague players, bloghopped to those of my besties, and browsed the channelnewsasia website. Ever since Joel bombarded me with so many astonishing facts that are happening around the world, I became determined to make reading news a part of my life. Joel, I still remember you probing me that question in that tone, "Huh? You mean you don't know?" Wa, I remember I was so ashamed back then lah! Hm, so I will make reading news my habit now, and you won't have a second chance to that now!=)
After that, I took out the notes my tutor gave us in a last minute attempt to salvage our dying english. I was hoping to find some structure for the application question since the past few assignments that I've done were never met with any positive remarks from the tutor. Thus, I ended up reading that last pieces of notes, and some of my past essays. Kind of panicky, but disregarded that feeling for a while, and ended up playing Cabal for a while before leaving for school. Went to school together with Bao, and took the test. Paper 1 did not have a smooth start. In fact it was kind of bumpy with cancellations here and there. Forunately, it became better as I proceed, and managed to come up with a decent 3-pieces length of essay.
Had a thirty minute break in between. Me, Kah, Bao, Shuhaddah, and Bobo gathered at one corner and had a quick chat. It's been sometimes since the ex-nasians have come together for a proper chat, and the feeling was good. A familiar feeling, though I don't remember us having done that even when we were still back in Ngee Ann.
Paper 2 was fine. Initially I thought the duration was only 1hour 15minutes, but it turned out to be 1hour 30 minutes. Nevertheless, I still thouhgt it was short, and thus speedread through the passaged. I usually read into detail before embarking on the questions. But this time round I read the questions to gain an insight to the passage, before speed reading it. So I was kind of faster that usual. Had 30 minutes left when I was left with AQ, and 10 minutes left when I completed tha entire paper. I felt it was reasonable, but that feeling always gave me the denial. So I shlla learn from Joel and just hope for a pass.
Today is Monday. The second day for study break, also the last. I used to accuse my school of it's obsession to make its people to come to school as much as possible, considering that MJ had a day off when the A'levels results were good, but we only had one. But until now, so much had happened and passed, at least we have study breaks. MJ had theirs last week. No difference, but I feel that impact. I'm looking forward to next week today, probably will be cabal-ing with besty in the virtual world of internet.
Today I tried to get back as much sleep as I have lost during the past school term, and realise I had lost so much. I woke up at 1+ in the noon, but yet I was still tired. Hm, that's kind of bad. But I decided that won't do, so I got up, multi-tasked between work and game again. Hm. That's even worse, since this should account for my low productivity. The illustrious next week kept popping up in my mind just now, and perhaps that's the drive that kept me moving? The accomplishment to complete one year's work in a week would be great, especially when they are JC work.
Joel had 2 of his papers down today, and that left me in great envy. Thursday, yes that's the day, once that's down, I would be the happiest man on earth, I hope! All the best to everyone!
Posted by Judah at 9/22/2008 08:15:00 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Man Utd should have won! Mike sucks! That stupid referee. Like what PArk said, the tackles were the same, but Chelsea couldn't get the yellow cards.
Mikel WAS fine back then, but his performance demolished that image. He just keep provoking people. Ronaldo then Rooney. Many might have said if Rooney had kept his cool, then maybe it would be better, but ultimately it was Mike. That stupid bald! Smirking everywhere, and not doing his job. It was an obvious bias, and 6 yellow cards, plus almost a red for Ferdinand, were atrocious! Man Utd all the way.
Sore after lost we might feel, but just watch out. Man Utd is out to get you soon. And when it's not stamford bridge, we shall all see!!!! Man Utd all the way. All hail to Evans for his solid performance, all hail to Kusza for his maturing play in the post, and all hail to rooney for his relentless runs! Man Utd's the best!
Friday was the start of study break. Only managed to study a little. Played a lot though. It's bad. Fortunately, situation changed for the better later into the night. Multi-tasked between games and revision for Chemistry, which eventually became full-steam Chem-mugging. Studied all the way until 5 in the morning, and finished my third round of reading through Chem notes. Hopefully I will do well in that subject after so much effort in it. Mom came back from Malaysia on that night too. Thank God for her safe return. Good grace! She bought so much tibits back!
Satuday was of much craze. I mean who would go out early in the morning to play soccer when important exams are only 3 days away. Well, I was one of them, and Kah and gangs were the other few. Because of the late night I had the day before, I was 1 hour late. There were many people there, that we had to play league. My first game was a flop as I was really slow to respond all the time. Few games later I got better into it. Not exactly good, but at least better. Goal tally: 4 consecutive goals. Not impressive, but at the very least, satisfying. Had a small catch up session with the rest, before I left for home. Sister was here with her two kids, but I really needed space and quietness condusive enough to study. So by 3 I left for Joel's house, and begun my full steam mugging with Joel. Completed my geog, during which dozed off halfway through . Nevertheless I completed the physical part of it, and Joel completed his economics revision. Fifa 09, not sure if that's the game, had it's trial version released and available for download. It looked fine, but if the features that Joel had told me were to be made real, maybe I would be impressed too. Had fun boycotting Denilson in Joel's Arsenal game, and if there's anything that put a dent into the near perfect day, it would be Denilson's late goal against Bolton last night. Apparently, having assisted and gotten on the score-sheet in the process, but yet unable to secure a bonus; on the contrary, Walcott came on and got himself a bonus when he only played 18 minutes. That shows his goal and assist were somewhat of his sheer luck=P
Today is Sunday. Woke up a little late, making journey to church a little hasty. Tiredness overcame me and I dozed off for a while during service. But I had a major takeaway from today's service. "I am just a nobody who shares with everybody about that somebody who can save anybody". If anyone willingly goes to church with me, it is because He brought that person to church through me, instead of my relentless effort. Praise the Lord! With that, I feel so encouraged in evangelsim, especially within my social circle. I will just do my part, and He will see to the rest. Pastor Derrick's experience in spreading gospel with the mother was a plus point!
Poiema was halted for 3 or 4 weeks due to examination. So after service, we went separate ways, and I got home.
Alright, its Friday and school's finally ended, at least tentatively it is. It's study break, and four days later would be my first period. That's how fast time has passed present days. Technology made everything so fast-paced that you don't realise how quickly each day has passed. So if a question for General Paper's essay happens to be tested for promotonal exams, then perhaps that could be a very relevant point. Technology reduced time to do one thing, but on the contrary it increases the amount of things that needs to be completed within the same period of time, not by a bit, but so much more. So while technology buys us time, it burns out time at a greater pace. That's a paradox.
~Rewind~
Yesterday's a Thursday and as always, the longest day. And somehow it brought me to agree with the saying that man-kinds desire for more once they possess a certain level of certain things. Having skipped school the day before, that thought crossed my mind again yesterday morning when the bed-devil refused to let me off by presenting me with delicious temptation- something I wanted so much at that point of time, that is to sleep. So 530 my sister woke me up, but I snapped, probably very much irritated by her yacking. I was half awake then, but was kind of reluctant to take a step out, so I just sat there, and eventually I was tempted back to sleep. At 630, my sister gave me a scare by flaring up, and I was instantly woken. But 630 was already kind of late, and I have no luxury to bathe. call me a filthy bum if you desire, but that was how pressing time was. I washed my face, changed out into uniform, sprayed some deodourent, and set off hastily. By the time I reached the bus stop, it was still very late- 640, and what's worse was that the bus refused to come. I've always have an issue with Singapore's bus system, but has since given in by leaving as early as I could to catch the earliest reasonable bus, but the system still sucks, since the time at which certain bus service comes differs every other day, making it hard to track. But in any case, I realise I was really late, and situation made me in such a spot that I decided to cab to school. Guess what, the cabby didn't know where my school is, and I had to tell him to take a detour to Tanah Merah MRT before giving him the directions, since that was the only way I know. Hm, now I know my school is in Bedok South instead of Bedok North, at a hefty price of 8 bucks.
Good grace, I was not late. I went into the HC room, and many people were there- Zen, Phay, Tracer, and Mat. First period of the day was used for cohort meeting, and we decided to stick together for most of the day. Wanning joined in soon after. So together we attended to cohort meeting, Chem lecture, math lecture and the break after that. Had fun teasing the girls with out height advantage. Actually I was not really involved, mainly a watcher, Mat and Zen were the ones doing most of the things. Wanning's care bear and Phay's wombat ended up being hung from the ceiling through the aircon's cover. Hahax!
GP was enlightening in a sense that we finally know the basic skeletal structure of how to go about answering questions. But think again, ain't those what we have been doing all aong, or at least what we thought we've been doing. Hm. Maybe this double periods would make me to have greater self-awareness when answering the questions. Mr Quek said it's important to be confident of our answers. Well, I always am, but the faith that I have in my answer was always met with denial from the marker. Hm, but in any case, I will abide more strictly this time round and thereafter.
The rest of the day was fine, except that from the latter part of the break I became kind of sick- bad flu and fever. The mucus just won't stop flowing. Mrs Toh made me wear a mask for fear of me spreading it to the other people, my second time of the year. I reached home at around 1740 and slacked again. It's really bad, I should have started but here I am still pretty laid back. Hm, dear Father, please give me the strength and stress so that I will pull myself together to embark on my revision. And for all the people who are preparing for examinations, I pray that Father, you will grant them wisdom so that they will understand what they study better and apply them correctly. I also pray for good health for all these people. Thank you Father. In Jesus name, Amen.
Hello blog! Today I'm kind of high. Finally, I'm getting much of the long-deprived sleep back. Today's a Wednesday- used to be the slackest day of the week. But since examinations are approaching, it's now become the most time-wasting day. Lessons were originally scarce in the original time table, together with the free periods in between, people from 17/08 had endured wasting half a day in school in the past. However, with the arrival of exams, some lessons were cancelled, and some were used to recap what was already taught, while the others for test. Today's first period was used for Physics diagnostic test, but the questions used were mcqs from past year's exam, which were already given to us before, making the test kind of redundant. Then, it was a series of free periods until the last, being mathematics tutorial. Exam topics were already completed, leaving for us some revisions to do. Our current phase halted in permutation and combination. However, the math tutorial on monday had already highlighted most of the key concepts, so today was basically used to complete the tutorial for that chapter and nothing else. Civics and contact time were cancelled too. So that's basically a total wastage of 6 to 7 hours- unproductive and energy-draining. Together with my current conditions- sleep deprivation, I decided to skip school today. It was for a cause- to replenish the much needed rest, in order to carry on a journey that is much longer.
All the above was hearsay from my friend- referring to the lesson outline today. Having skipped school, I slept in until 11, woke up, pretty much refreshed. Then, I heard my sister that hse she has received her results for her poly exams and she did well! Two distinctions, according to her, that's even better than As, so it must be really good. Good job, sister! Thank God for seeing her through this, and may you perform more miracles and open the blind eyes of her heart so that she will come to know about you. Amen. So that was really good, and I'm feeling generous, and I decided to treat her beakfast. Breakfast at 1130! It wasn't any big feast but only some noodles bought from the hawker, but it's the thought that counts, yea? considering that I walked all the way to that place to get it for you=) Apart from that, I also went to have a long-needed haircut. My long fringes were irritating and brought much discomfort during the past few days that ?I had to wax them aside every morning before going to school. Now it's shorter, it made me even more refreshed=) I like the new haircut!
The entire afternoon, I washed my own clothes and sun them myself. Yeap, today's also the first day mom's not at home, and also very much the first time I see the obedience in my sister flowing out again. Somehow, it disappeared for a while, but who cares, it's back now=) She actually woke up in the morning to wake me to go school, usually my mom does it=). And she also mopped the floor. Yes, she's becoming so obedient! I was on the other end of the obedience scale though. Maybe not exactly the end, but was no where near hers. Was kind of lazy. I spent my entire day multi-tasking between game and work. It's an improvement- at least I started studying! Go on, Tiong! May our heavenly Father grant me the strength and obedience to resist any temptation, not only from work, but also from spending time with Him. Amen.
Dad bought me dinner near evening. Thanks dad, and I continued doing the physics test that were taken by my classmate in the morning. I can do most, but had many careless grave mistakes. For instance, I took 240 in all my caculations instead of the given 120! But I got stuck in a few questions too. Must consult tutor tomorrow during double period.
As night came, many nice dramas lined up until now. I like the baby in the 9pm show (very cute), then HongKong drama at 10 was fine, the Taiwan show at 1230 rocks! I like it. Very nice. And 1 of the song just got Joel to download for me. Will upload in a different post later too. Enjoy!
In between, I also browsed through the daysprings e-cards, and they have new designs. The baby one was super cute, and some of the songs are nice. So I decided to send it to some of my closest friends to check on them and wish them good luck. Will send out more in time to come- share the blessings=). Tomorrow's gonna be a long day- jiayou everyone!
Monday was fine, but a little too long. Shacked me slept everywhere. There's nothing much to blog about.
Tuesday was fine too. Had PE for the first period. They said it was some self-monitoring activity where we had to do 4 laps, 30 push-ups, 30 sit-ups, 5 chin ups. Most of my friend ran only 3 rounds, but I was obedient enough to finish them all. Didn't the 5 chin-ups though. Then we played soccer. Didn't had fun because my breathing is becoming worse each time after exercise. Meaning, I really got to start training up. Lessons were normal but long. Then at 1230 I decided to go home since there only one more period after the two consecutive breaks. I mean waiting for a period for 4 hours is kind of waste of time. Furthermore, it was only permutation and combination and the concepts were mostly covered the day before. So it's time I go home, and I went, and took a nap. Headache torturous.
Mom went to Kualau Lumpur tonight and will only come back on Friday. I have to wash my own clothes, do my own chores, and endure the long hours of silence when no one's at home=( Sad me.
Since the other two F.Fs have already posted their results on the following quiz, I should too. I've done it before, but as I grow older, my mentality changes, and the results were somewhat off of what I've done before. Whether accurate or not is not for me to judge, but for my case, I got to say that I disagree with some.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Posted by Judah at 9/15/2008 04:00:00 AM
It's been 3 days since I last blogged. As how prone man-kind are to temptations, I was distracted from what I used to perceived as my top interest/habit/liking/routine (whatever way you would call it)- blogging. It used to be a daily event, then there was this period where I could only blog every other day, but it was still a daily matter since I would usually make up for the lost entries. But this time, I've dallied for 3 days, and guilt is creeping up on me. There's this constant discomfort which gnaw my conscience awake or asleep. It's definitely not a chore, since it's like my favourite past-time to write about myself and to see other people comment about it.
Tracing back to last friday, lessons were normal. 3 periods of break in during mid-day allowed me to replenish up a little though how exactly I had spent that time was already very much forgotten. The last period was Physics and it was the first time I had a one-to-one consultation with Mrs Toh, ragarding some doubts I had during that day's lecture. Initially I was pretty fearful because I only went up to her after lesson so there were only me and her in the room. The fear was not without a cause since I've always associated her with a bit of mental instability. Alright, her being crazy is definitely not a point that I'm driving at, but very much rather, her change of emotions during lessons. In any case, the consultation went well, and was a very enriching one. That shows how a person's experience in her profession can benefit her students so well. Thank you Mrs Toh!
Saturday was a sleep in day since for some reason I've been having really late nights for the past one week. Thus, I only woke up after late morning, had my lunch, played some game, before setting off to Joel's house. This time round I decided to bring a set of clothes and leave it with them so that I would not have to bring two sets of clothes, which is like very much a hassle since I go there practically every week. At his house, both of us studied a little before watching Man Utd against Liverpool match live at 730. Man Utd didn't play well, especially the flanks. I used to say that Man Utd has the best flanks in all soccer clubs apart from Valencia, but this time round, they were owned on the left by Liverpool's new boy, Reira. Brown's lack of pace made him a suceptible target to Reira's breath bursting runs down the left. On the other half of the field, Evra was making little significance there as he was always seen on the centre of the pitch. So Man Utd flanks were really exploited. The first goal by Tevez was a result from Berba's classy pass, a reasonalbe debut performance. Man Utd dominated much until the second half, where Van Der Sar's mistake to punch the ball made Brown the unfortunate to score an own goal. Thereafter, Man Utd begun to lose confidence, and Liverpool began to dominate. The injury to Michael Carrick only meant that Giggs had to be sub on on the second half. His presence created a few opportunity on the opponent's side, but none was as significant as his mistake which allowed Mascherano to draw back the ball to aid fresh face, Ryan Babel with Liverpool's first genuine goal against Man Utd in 7 or 8 games. 2-1 margin was a reasonable result for both side as Man Utd's shaky defence could have resulted in a bigger scoreline. Personally, I feel that Wayne Rooney, Reira, Mascherano, Skrtal were the better performers on the pitch. Flop of the match has to be shared between Brown and Benayounn. If it hadn't been on Anfield, Benayounn could have very well received a yellow or even an early bath. I thought if only Man Utd had played wing play and short passes they could have played better. As was seen in the second half when Ryan Giggs and Evra succeeded in penetrating to the Reds' half down the left flank. Suggested formation:
Dimitar Berbatov
Nani Carlos Tevez Wayne Rooney
Michael Carrick Anderson
Patrice Evra Namanja Vidic Rio Ferdinand Wes Brown
Edwin Van Der Sar
Sub: Kuscheak, Fletcher, Oshea, Giggs, Haegreaves
Possible considerations: Rafael
After that, we continued to study for a while before I started doing masterlife at 11, and turned in at 1140.
Sunday was fine. After having skipped last week's service, I was determined to turn up this week. That explained why I stayed over at Joel's place. It was also the first time I officially helped out with church duties as this week was my group's turn. I kind of forgot my cell name again. So all of us left early, and we helped to set up the chairs and the banners. The trolley that the uncles usually used to ferry the chairs around wasn't as easy to use as it seems to be. I was having so much trouble manoeuvring it and the weight supported on my shoulder was heavy. I thought I could handle but now I'm having an ache there. Guess I must have strained a muscle or two there. Service was about Evangelism and Apologetics which were two words I was not familiar with. But from that session I guess it means to spread God's word and influence the people around us into believing in the one and only true Him through our actions and words. One such way was asking probing questions which I thought has to be complemented with factors like situation and the audience.
Poiema was fruitful. Finally the discussion was in itself bearing fruit! Everyone is becoming more active in the discussion and the feeling was great=) Praise the Lord!
While the series of unfortunate event became the yesterday, it also marked the beginning of the longest day of the week. It's becoming redundant to arrive on the forth day of the week, and re-emphasise that it is the most hectic day of the week each time I blog. It's kind of meaningless?
Having dozed off the day before, I only managed to sleep one hour last night. So today is also the day where I experienced the headache that tormented me the most. Double lecture was fine. Double period of General Paper was fun, and I enjoyed doing the mock paper. Double lunch was slack. Human Geog was okay. Double Physics was slack yet again, since we did quite little comparatively as SPA for the year was already over. Physical geog was enjoyable, because Ms Je was more cheery than ever, and the many jokes which she cracked up, and the fact that she decided to release us on time adds many more points to the already very good day=)
Despite the headache that tortured me so much, it was the best day ever since many weeks back. At night, I dozed off at 10, and slept all the way until 6. Finally, I was able to get back some much deprived sleep. zZzZ...
Today's Wednesday and school was supposed to start later, and I was really late, later than usual. Sleep deprivation finally revolted, and I couldn't pull myself out of bed until I realise what time it was- 740 in the morning. I had to be in school by 8, so that was kind of mission impossible. Since I was going to be late, I thought I should dally and take my time.
On the bus, I saw a glimpse of hope when another fellow TJC-ian board the bus, so I thought I might be able to make it. However, reading my watch again, it was already 755, all the more impossible. So I smsed a few of my friends to tell them about how late I was going to be, and many rantings. When I was about to reach the school, devil spoke to me. "Maybe I could bluff my way through. After all the J2s are having their prelims, so if I were to tell the guard that I am a J2, then maybe..." I knew it was wrong to even entertain that kind of thoughts, but life just like that isn't it? The more difficult the situation, the more prone you are to be subjected to evil temptations. So I struggled, the good side of my conscience, the side which has always been following God's words all along, was fighting this internal war within me. It didn't come to any conclusion though. When I was entering the school, I had already left the "war" behind me, and it was really reflex reaction. I didn't even think about what to do. As expected, the guard stopped me. And my response? "Yes, I am a J1, I overslept." Isn't it amazing to see how God act through the minor things in life? I mean, He never forsake us, even when we choose to stop fighting a war, He will continue to fight it for us, and eventually win it for us. (John 8:31-32) "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free." Now that my conscience is cleared, I am free from guilt! Thank you Father!
So immediately, I went to lecture theatre for physics lecture. Brain was still kind of malfunctioning, so basically I just copied down all that were required of me. Shall recap it sometimes later. After that was a series of free periods. I decided to stay in the HC room, and slacked? Ok, maybe not really slack. Just chatted with friends, and because of the good thing that happened in the morning, I decided to do my quiet time there. So after a while, I'm doing my masterlife again. We do QT to 1.improve relationship with Him, 2. to seek guidance and directions, 3. to confide in Him our needs, 4. to bear fruit. =)
Wednesday has always been the slackest day of the week as we only have to come to school to attend the first period (physics lecture) and the last period (math tutorial). However, our math tutor was absent today, so that made it practically to come to school to waste time? We did PNC poyo questions though. Maybe it's too harsh to call it a waste of time. After all, my PW group managed to talk to the teacher advisor to clarify points for our WR, and I managed to do my masterlife! God creared this time out of my hectic life to allow me to continue to spend time with Him. Thank you Father, for not forsaking me!
So school finally ended in the noon at around 2. School ended kind of late, compared to the time at which our formal lessons had ended- 910. Then, as I was about to leave for home, I realised that my EZ-link card was still with our discipline master due to me being late. I went to his office, but to no avail since he wasn't there. Thus, I decided to go to the guard who took the card from me earlier this morning, but was rebuffed as he insisted that I would have to wait until 4pm, which was supposedly the norm procedure.
For a while, this was this sudden swelling up of hatred within me. It was like hardly I could go home so early, and what purpose does it serve to detain people in school until late afternoon. So for a while, I really thought that was a total waste of time, and I got myself convinced that I hate him. But after I've cooled down, I begun to question myself- "If only I've lied this morning, then I would've reached home by now." So there was this aftermath of that dilemma in the morning. Did I really regret? I pondered over it for a while, and I realised that I did not. At least my conscience was clear! God is loving and forgiving. Despite spending so little time with Him, He never forsakes me. Life is not a one-off thing, and one good deed does not equate a job well-done. But instead, even after the event, He continued to come back to me to remind me of His teaching. God loves His people and have the best planned for them in their lives. He never forsakes them, and never does a hasty job. Thank you Father , for giving providing me with answers to my dilemma.
So upon that realisation, I decided to do another day of my masterlife. I understand that God wants us to have a daily regular routine with Him included inside. He does not want us to spend a lot of time on every other day, but wants it on a daily basis. Nevertheless, I felt so much of Him today, that I thought I really wanna spend more time with Him! I love you, Father.
Late noon, when 4 was about to descend. Fang, Mat and me played friz-bee in the HC room, and that was really some workout. I really enjoyed it. The fear of talking to him silently creeped up in me at the same time. My first attempt was to no avail as he was not in his room. So I went back to the HC room. Second attempt almost went down the drain, if I had been less observant. As I was about to climb the stairs to his office at the second floor, I saw a fellow TJC-ian talking to one of the staffs in the General Office, and the lady was holding something very much seemed to be like a stack of cards. On closer look, I realised they were all EZ-link cards, so I decided to stay and find out. So I did not wait in vain for their conversation to end, because that really was the stack of cards containing mine. I collected my card, not forgetting to thank the lady, and went back to the HC room. We continued playing friz-bee all the way until 5.
I have not done any academically related work today, apart from that PNC poyo, and that was really bad. Promos are in a week's time, and I really need to get started. Mat and me took the same bus home, and we had a nice chat on along the journey.
Upon finished bathing, tiredness got the better of me, and I dozed off in front of my laptop. I was really exhausted. By the time I woke up, it was already 10+. And shame to confess, I have been playing game since then, and I ought to feel bad about that. Lord, I pray that You will give me the strength to withstand all temptation that comes in my way to distract me from work, and worst of all, distract me from spending time with You. In Jesus name I pray, Amen. I hope tomorrow will be more productive.
Today's Tuesday, supposedly slightly mroe hectic than mondays, but instead, our PW lesson was cancelled, leaving us, non-KI students with 3 periods worth of break.
Sunday's sleepless night has left me really weak. Last night I slept at 12, so that didn't help me recuperate any bits of sleep that I was very much deprived of. So today I woke up with swollen eyes, which many people deemed them to be smaller than the originally already very small sockets. Fact is I was having difficulty opening them.
Many people thought that there would not be any PE today since they said it was the last before the school term closed. So who would have guess that they were referring to the last for that particular term, which was like, duh! Who would go back to school during the holidays for PE. Of course it would be the last. Thus, many people didn't bring their full attire for PE. But some of the teachers were lenient enough to let those off. According to the guy, it was said that since promos are coming, they want us to exercise to keep fit, and these would only be light exercises. For a moment I actually believed that, only to realise I was wrong much later, very wrong.
Normal PE includes running lapses around the school, and the so-called light PE involved us to run two rounds, with supplementaries of many push-ups and dips. The fact that I didn't have enough sleep didn't help at all, that soon I was feeling the drowsiness, and I very much wanted to puke. For a while I thought the asthma is relapsing again. I mean really, I could feel the pant and the choke, which gave me that gut feeling. It's bad. Looks like I really have to train up more. After all asthma experiences taught me not to meddle with them unnecessarily. So panting, I walked back to the HC room to chat with Mat and Theen, while adjusting the pace of breathing. It's just such hassle when asthma is involved. Breathe in, breathe out.... Even basic inhaling and exhaling needed special attention. Such attention seeker!
I slept for the first of the 3 periods break, then went for lunch with Jaren, Phay, and Meiyi. Been so long since I ate outside- the last time was before the holidays if I'm not wrong. So it felt good, I suppose., like eating with friends and blah.
Math period was usual, with many people forever fighting to volunteer, while I remain the proactive me that I usually am, at least in class. Despite class participation marks and stuffs like that, I just feel that it really defeats the purpose if people are doing this solely for that. I mean, really unless it's the same kind of passion that our tutors share for that particular subject or there really is some problem that one encounters, doing it for that 10% is just not right. That's what I thought.
After school, I took a bus home, and overshot my stop by one stop. That just show how tired I've become. Original plan was to sleep immediately once I get home. But something prevented me. Was it the laptop- that game, or was it just my inability to resist temptation withtin myself? In Christianity, devils create temptations in order to distract and divert us away from the Teachings. Hm. Come to think of it, games took up some of my precious time, maybe not a lot, but with that, my work was pushed back, and my quiet time with Him was compromised. I hadn't made progress for my masterlife. I miss Him!
Some updates on school life (thought "Be Yourself day" has been quite some time away). Enjoy:
Ohs well, to continue from where I stopped, the sleepless night followed me to school. Because I didn't sleep, and energy was drained at an exceptionally fast rate, I had a heavy breakfast- fried rice. It's been some time since I last had a proper chat with my dear mommy. Nice!
That sleepless night instilled a constant fear in me that I didn't dare to lie down or close my eyes, for that I know that would only mean one thing- a dead corpse. So I left home early at 6, and reached school at 625. No one was in the room yet, but I didn't feel the temptation to nap. Perhaps the sleeping hour's already passed? So I waited for the people to come.
Lessons were fine, except that I was on an unusually high note today. Not sleeping really drove my mind crazy I guess. The following happenings shall be blogged in bullet form since my mana and health are approaching zero in no time.
Had fun playing with Zen, Wanning, Teresa, Hongyi and fang in the HC room during one of the break.
Stole Wanning's care-bear for a temporary 10bucks pawn.
Yet another sleepless night. It's already 423 in the morning and I've only JUST managed to complete my homework. A year's worth of content was required of us to fully re-visit in a span of one week, and on top of it was many more homework assigned to us by our tutors. It's amazing to see so many of the graduates coming out, claiming that they have enjoyed JC life, because at the moment I'm finding it very much an impossible task. I mean school would of course be enjoyable if not for the never-ending pile of homework. But their presence was essential. At least that was very much the case in our local context, where meritocracy is practised (Singapore's education system). Although very much a time, people wonder what merit does this refer to- the good results that never fail to produce book-smarties?
Alright, enough of my ranting. Today's supposedly a Sunday, though the hour and minute hands of my clock have both passed 12 long ago. So there ought to be service today- something which I would definitely enjoy much much more than going to school. At least, service means peace, calm, enlightenment and many refreshing thoughts. But at current phase, I've to prioritise. Though the bible teaches us not to put anything above Him. I know that, but it's difficult to execute. I mean not all people agree with that. It's not as if our dear tutors would accept that as an excuse- I mean, "I did not have time for schoolwork because I had my commitments in church." Come on. Thus, despite me making the immense effort to complete my second day's masterlife so that I could keep up with the amount that Faith had prepared for TODAY, my head/mind began to give way as the sun arose. At 6 my mind was already a complete blank, and by 8 when both Joel and Faith gave me morning calls, I was already not aware of the happenings. As a result, I didn't go to church today. I wanted to go very much though, but tiredness overcame me. I'm apologetic, maybe a bit to my fellow friends, but more to myself. Sigh. I shall go to Joel's house to stay over the coming Saturday!
At night when I finally started work, I realised at the same time the piling up heap of homework that I've accumulated. Blame it on my lack of time management? But when one assignment could take up to like say 2 hours of a day, and there were 5 or 6 of them in total, does time management really matter that much. Not to forget, a year's worth of content, not for one subject, but 3 major science, brain draining ones. The fact that geography was still pretty much untouched meant only greater stress.
I guess today's sleep's already pretty much forsaken. I shall turn in for a while- maybe 30 minutes, and then go to school, do some comm stuffs(I've got something to discuss with Theen), maybe take some naps, and come back home, rush through geography assignments, and blah! Bed, I can only come to you then=(. A long school day awaits. 440 faster come!
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