And it was one month ago that spelt the start of another one. I still remember myself being so hesitent about joining cheerleading again. Last year's experience was definitely a fun one, but a tiring one too. But somehow I decided. One month plus from then, and it has finally ended. Huang Rui's post in the twfc has the simplest structure but each line was a precious piece of memory for all of us. 2009 cheerleading is a very bonded one, but yes, I do feel the gap between me and them sometimes. Perhaps because of the type of person I am? One who moodswings a lot; one who thinks way too much that I should; one who unties shoelaces in order to seek attention (or perhaps a subconcious act); and one who might not even be sure of what him himself is like as a person. I have super high self-esteem and a super big ego. Used to be proud of them but not anymore when they become hindrance that had stopped me from being myself. I admire how they could have a common topic to converse over, while as much as I wanna join in I know nuts about the ongoings in media. But again, the relationship was not built on this. Like it went way beyong describable. We were part of it, and we still are. So many memories that yes we will remember. 

Many envy us for hving established this strong bondage. But I was entertaining some otherwise- if I hadn't joined, perhaps it would not have hurt as much- enduring the unjust and even more so the end. Nevertheless, I never regretted. Lives gonna be different thereafter, but hopefully, that only spells a turning point in that journey, not a deadend. We were all in this together. 

Hopefully, that relationship will not fade.