Blessed child's dairy

ENJOY

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O Holy Night

God's Angels guided me through
brightening darkness; removing obstacles
to have seen me thus far
Secrets of the woods become secrets no more
For God has commanded me to share my experience
with those whom trust and don't
as the encounter would witness and stand
and show the greatness of our mighty Lord

God bless

*God's child*
*Koh Tiongwei*.
9-teen
24th February 1991
Christian

*Foot-track*

-All Saints (English Congregation) -Gongshang Primary 1.8, 2.8, 3.7, 4.7, 5.7, 6.7
-Ngee Ann Secondary 1e4, 2r4, 3r1,4r1
-TJC House Committee 16th ALPHA
-Anglican Diocese Youth Board Project Serve 2010

*♥Jesus♥ *
♥Fantastic Five
♥Caricatures
♥Alpha House Committee
♥Soothing music
♥Nature wonders
♥Outdoors
♥Traveling
♥Football[EPL]
♥Fascinating Facts
♥Cool Surprises
♥Cartoons [Pixar and Disney]

Dislikes
Jesus said,"Love your enemy."

Wishlist
*fallen star *
~Bicycle
~Backpack
~Tee
~Shades
~Laptop*
~Watch
~Happiness*

Tagboard

Old Stories
Sorrow
Big day
Green green day
Satuday- when terminal 3 starts to flood, with hum...
Back to work...
Closure to Secondary School's life
Get the Civics Group on!
triple attacks
Work
Reborned, relieved, relived

Past Grace
[Archives]
August 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
August 2010
November 2010
December 2010
January 2011
February 2011

Fellowship

Poiema
Ariel[p]
Charmaine[p]
Daphne[p]
DeQi[p]
Jeremy[p]
Jia En[p]
Jocylyn[p]
Joel
Jolyn

Serve 2010
Esther
Shaylen
Vanessa

House Committee
Calvin
Crystal
FangXiong
Hanle
Helena
Krystal
Lwin
Mat
MeiYi
Nicholas Lau
PhayKey
Sharron
ShiYan
Teck Kian
Teresa

Others
Baohui
EeWen
Hui Yan
KC
Ping
Roy
WeiYi
XiaoHui

=Love
=F.F
[p]=poiemian
=Alpha HC comrades

Praise the Lord

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Sorrow-est

It was night. After days of pondering, I've decided to tell him the truth. It's a hard decision, because from which ever perspective we look at the issue, it still sums up to the same conclusion-I'm at fault. I hadn't been feeling too good about hiding the truth from him. In fact, I had wanted to confess to him long ago. But many factors dragged us down. At first he wasn't feeling particularly very good over everything that had happened, then he was down with a very serious flu. So we thought telling him then wasn't a good time. We didn't want to worsen his conditions. But never had we expected the problem to snowball into what is is today. I didn't have the courage at first. I never had it... But I knew that the truth's gonna reveal itself someday, and I didn't want to deceive him anymore. After all, friends equate to absolute trust. And deceiving would mean betrayal. Though he's already marked me down as a betrayer already... So I told him, and much to my despair, I lost my best friend. He was my best friend, is my best friend, and I wanted a 'will-be' best friend too. But everything just seemed so distant now. The hatred was clear, despite the fact that he said one day we might reconcile again. He's been trying to convince me with reasons that weren't too convincing, to maintain the distance. I mean I understand why it turned out like that. What else do you expect from a betrayer? Although I've anticipated this somehow, I cried. Tears started blurring my vision. Losing a friend isn't as simple as everyone thinks it seemed, especially when he's a best friend and the only best friend. Tears drip, tears dried, tears stopped, and seconds later, tears drip again. I can't help. With the tears dripping, came many memories we had in the post. Times where we had so much fun. When we started the study group, where we went to a Christmas party, where we encountered problems and faced it together, where we sat front-to-back in class and had our wonderful snacks, where we chatted online despite the thousands of distance apart and the hours of time lapse. Even where there were life-changing adversities charging either of us in the face, we had faced it together bravely, and overcame each. I knew that I had to be the force behind him, I had to give him the support, never to leave him alone, and never to forsake him as a friend. Thin and thick we came through, but today the relationship was broken. After all, it didn't prove as strong as it seemed. He's heartless to do that to me... I know you were hurt too, but I wasn't spared, and I couldn't help thinking about it. When the relationship becomes zero, does it mean that we could start afresh? Or is it just a verbal statement? From hat I see, we had become negative, we are now worse than acquaintance, because you've set the barrier to bar me out from your world.

Labels: forsaken, stranded and alone

Posted by Judah at 1/29/2008 07:30:00 AM