Alright, so after reviving my blog, I've let it die for one say, once again. Apologies.Yesterday was the first time I returned to school ever since I fell very ill exactly a week ago. I was still pondering on whether to join my teammates for morning training then, but decided to anyway. I thought I would be able to do at least one but then still, couldn't pull myself up. Somehow, the sick feeling came back almost as soon as the announcements ended. Hence, I put on the emo-face and got some of my classmates pretty worried. Apologies again. This day I had two test consecutively one after the other. Geography(the one which I was more not confident of) turned out to be manageable. I didn't refer to notes despite the relief teacher giving us the permission to do so. But the next test was disastrous. Physics, almost, I mean, definitely un-doable. Chemistry didn't help much too. I was pretty confident of the test a last week, and if I didn't remember wrongly, I was so proud of myself back then because I didn't study for the test and the day before I had cheerleading until late night 2300h and yet I could do. I was thinking finally I'm going to have some nice marks for my JC test, perhaps I'm getting the hang of it. Even when the teacher was giving out the paper yesterday, I was still clinching obstinately to that glimmer of hope that I've done well. Best progress award, I was hoping for that. But in the end I only got 12/23, a very borderline pass. Disappointment. In the afternoon, after much struggle, I decided not to go for training. Actually I wanted to go. I called Matthew and 190, but couldn't get to them. Thus, I went home. Was super light-hearted. For the first time in many months, I was able to go home that early, 1500+h. Simple pleasure like this in life, yet I was deprived of it. Hence, that day I was really happy.Today was a Saturday, nothing much of any worthy mentions happened today, except for that call. Matthew called me at night to tell me that my teammates have already found out about my intentions to quit. He explained to me all rationale and how bad my teammates were feeling because of what I've written in my previous entires. Sorry guys. That wasn't my intention when I wrote it. It was just my thought and what occurred to me at that point of time. I assure you guys, if I ever quit, it's definitely not because of you all. And on the contrary, I've stayed on until now, you guys are the reason. Said that many times, but that's just how I felt about you all. You guys rock=)