Today I returned to church again. Both Joel and Faith were not there with me, for that they had duties at the Agape side. Thus, it was really my first time attending church myself. It was quite a foreign feeling. I sat behind Jolyn and Jocylyn, and was later joined by Yan Jun and a couple. Thanks Yan Juan for sitting with me. I only realise that the couples were new there after the pastor mentioned at the end of the service. I ought to have welcome them more warmly when they approached and asked me if the seats beside were occupied. I mean I should have made them feel welcome. It was bad on my part that I answered them coldly...Service talks about the dealing of trials and all. These are the adversities in our lives. For the first time in my participation in service that I could really relate, when Pastor quoted the life of Joseph in Genesis. He also quoted Paul and a few other characters from the bible, whom I haven't come across yet. We shall see. But the most interesting part was the fishing for lobsters part, braving the storm and using joy to forget the pain. It's an example of much simplicity and to a certain degree humour ( for me at least), but I could relate. Yes, the joy of our loved ones could help us deal with all adversities. Quote of the day: "endurance is the mother of all virtue". Pastot Steven said that was the answer for one of his test which he got wrong back then, thus leaving an impression. Endurance because without it, how else could we develop/build/create the other virtues. How true!Then towards the end of the service, he talked about the position of Christianity in present society, where some christians in some countries underwent unfair treatment because of their belief that there is only one true God. Even in the case of Singapore, there are some signs too. Like what Pastor said, "Let's hope we won't come to that stage one day." The awkward part was after service. Because Joel wasn't there, I got no one to stick with. Hence, in the end I tried to get myself occupied by helping Alvin with the chairs. It didn't take long before I finally called Joel and joined him at third floor counseling centre. Today we started on a new material- the masterlife. But before that, we did one last lesson of nooma, which Pastor Steven claimed that it was a wrong tape he had mistaken. In any case, I find it good. Today's nooma talked about flames (love). Love has three types- the raja (friendship, confidant, a relationship between someone whom you could really share practically everything with. To some, it's mere friendship, but I think it's more than that. It's really like a soulmate kind or really good friends, like buddies, and maybe even cloneship if that's considered), the ahava (commitment love, the willingness to commit everything to someone, and the willingness to merge with someone to become one. Customary, I call it marriage), and finally dod (the intimacy love, sexual lives and all. The what is know as eros or erotic. But it's a holy thing I think). Yan Jun related this to the love for the Lord, but Pastor Steven denied the dod part. The answer for the dod seemed to be a definite no, but Pastor seemed a little hesitent. Maybe I was too sensitive.After that we did the masterlife. It's a training for us to become good Christians and to live the way of Christians, so I'm looking forward to that. Did a little read up just now-the natural person, the worldly christians, the spiritual christians. I think I'm still at the phase of worldly christians, turning spiritually. Who knows, maybe one day I might just get myself baptised. I'm looking forward to Sunday more each time.Obstacles
13:17-18
God doesn't always work in the way that seems best to us. Instead of guiding the Israelitie along the direct route from Egypt to the Promised Land, he took them by a longer route so they could avoid fihting with the Philistines. If God does not lead you along the shortest path to your goal, don't complain or resist. Follow Him willingly and trust Him to lead you safely around unseen obstacles. He can see the end of your journey from the beginning, and He knows the safest and best route.
Hard-hearted
11:10
Did God really harded Pharoah's heart and force him to do wrong? Before the 10 plagues began, Moses and Aaron announced what God would do if Pharoah didn't let the people go. But their messages only made Pharoah stubborn-he was hardening his own heart. In so doing, he defied both God and His messengers. Through the first six plagues, God passed judgement. sooner or later, evil people will be punished for their sins. When it became evident he wouldn't change, God confirmed Pharoah's prideful decision and set the painful consequences of his actions in motion. God didn't force Pharoah to reject Him; rather, He gave him every opportunity to change his mind. Ezekiel 33:11, God says, "I take no pleasure in the death of wicked people."