Once again, it's been a long while since the last post; once again, within a blink of an eye so much had happened; once again, God is having such great significance in my life that I could but to only praise and exalt Him; once again, here I am on the day of book in penning down my thoughts before the lengthy days in camp; once again, so many once again-s.
Here, I am very much driven to have some creations of my own (borrowing the strength from the ultimate creator)- a website, a literacy work, many sketches, my own style of art, music pieces, wonderful stories, plots, very personal experience with Him etc.
Any how, deep within are waves after waves of hype- the looking forward to the end, and the anticipation of a new beginning. God gave us each new day so that we can always start afresh and experience the goodness that He has in store for us before we finally return home. Yet, at the same time, we cant help but to wonder- a few days ago after the Viper's evening, we were having some free and easy in the hall when I suddenly wonder "it's finally coming to an end. But what if I come back here 5 or 10 years down the road, will the building still be here then? If it's still here, what if I come up to this exact same spot that I am in now? Am I going to recall what I am feeling now, the fear and lost when at the exact same spot, with all the familiar environment, yet made distance by the absence of all these section mates whom had been with us for 3 months and more?"
I mean, as per now, I wouldn't consider any of my section mates as what many would say that they are the buddies, the pals, the brothers, the family whom had gone through the same thing as you for the past 4 months and therefore, they will understand you best and are likely to be your BFF. Yet, when we've gone through so much together, seeing each other over 200 hours each time, having experiences of a lifetime together (the many first in the entire lives) and having gone through sweet, sour and bitter like those meals we've had in the cookhouse, the end does seem an unfriendly foe. Perhaps, we've just gotten used and are just about to begin to enjoy what might have been a torment 3 months ago. In any case, I do wonder if I might miss those times in the near future.
The coming week is the second last of its kind already, and we are having our recruits evening this week. I just hope for the best- pass SOC and do well for IPPT, and I will leave this place with no regrets.
PS. stop talking army to me (I am serving army now doesn't mean I have to breath and live and talk army all the time)! Get a LIFE! (Alive in Christ, a life in Christ!)