Weather: Sunny still

Mood: You've a litre bottle and you fill it with half a litre of water, is it half-filled or half-empty now?

Frankly, if anyone was to ask me, whatever I've written before this did not originate from whatever intentions I had in mind before even beginning to write. I don't know if this is a homogeneous phenomenon amongst all humanities, or is it just a weird trait that has plagued the ill-fated me. I have never been able to cross a certain threshold in all my essays, beginning from the very first I've ever written. Many markers have tried to rectify my method of approach but to no avail- whatever I write about, even until now, I always have the tendency to drift. The common language amongst the teachers for this is that I lack focus. And myself in particular, is an extreme case. I mean even when I already have something in mind to write about, in the midst of writing I am still very likely to dwell too much in the irrelevant areas (like my previous entry). That, can never be considered a mild case anymore, can it?

Anyhow, what I have intended to write about was never a plain review of Avatar anyway. That is just not me, to only view certain issues as being bounded within the parameters of a particular film, for this case, it's 2hours 40 minutes. Not that it's bad to feedback on a film- on how awesome the 3-D and special effects have been; on how some speech could have been considered classically inspirational- but I am not a movie-reviewer in any sense, and neither do I have the appetite to become one. Rather, I would very much love to address concerns which reside deepest within us and have been evoked/awakened by any trigger in the likes of films and songs alike. A review you call that? I don't think so. (Have I gone off-focus again? That's why it's always so difficult for me to share without having any material aid)

Finally, we've finally arrived at the topic of discussion, the one which I've intended for; the one which have kept my journey so painfully long; the one which like many others, has left a deep impression on me; the one which has moulded a perspective of a different form.

I think it's amazing that I have so much to say about other things, but when it comes to the main topic which I've given so much thoughts about, I am unable to put them into words. But Nativity is really a topic where so much could be expressed. Shall upload it as a chart later.

The following is a very personal struggle with faith, so please do not be wavered by it. If a similar struggle occurs to you, do pray about it. He will speak. Just be patient and press on! Otherwise, DO NOT EVEN START READING!