Today's Thursday, the supposedly most hectic day of the week for the Geog students of 17/08. It was a long day, but I started out already tired. It was such an amazement that I pulled through 2 lessons after two lessons without falling asleep. Before school started, I went to the stage at the atrium and had a short nap until when it was about time for assembly then Zhen Xian came to wake me up=) Thank you=) After break we had General Paper where our new GP tutor let us play some games, which according to him linked back to the subject it self. Columbian Hynopsis, Three Irish Duels, and the Vampire of Strasbourg. All were lame games, but our class had fun. I could tell. I didn't though, because I felt ostraciszed. They knew I have made an arch enemy, but deliberately excluded me in the grouping, leaving me in the fear of matching up with her. Might be a joke, but it was really bad. I felt bad... Today I got back another test script- physical Geography. I scored 20/37, an acceptable result. After school I had HC meeting with the Beta and Alpha HC. We are going to cooperate and do up a big function on the first week of August. I'm looking forward to it. For some reason, I was sarbotaged to become the in-charge of our department (food). Fortunately, I have Elizabeth, Carabel, Priyanka, Phay Key, Mat, and Levina to help me out. Thanks guys! Our function's gonna be a runaway success. After that, I went to KFC with WanNing and Crystal. While they went to eat, I went over to the Sheng Siong supermart beside it to check out the price of some stuffs. Writting about that, now that I remember there's this research about Mexican food that need to be done. After that, I went home. For the entire of today, I felt rather grey. Things were said out clearly yesterday, and I don't want to pester anymore. I felt really degrading for being so weak in handling such stuffs, especially when I continued my way thick-skinnedly. It's really hurtful though. I want to give up but I don't want to let go. For the very fear that if I let go now, the chance of it coming back might as well be reduced to zero.Holding onto it was just as bad because the other party was reluctant to at least do 1/10 of what I'm doing. I like the quote in my previous entry, becasue I agree with it very much that relationship is something we CAN work on, and I'm really working on it. But it's just so discouraging, and four years sounded intimidating, very. And when a relationship becomes one-sided, it's as well as dead... I needed someone to talk to now, but Joel seemed really tired. I chose not to say it to you because I don't want sympathy anymore. Blog, can you hear me? What should I do? Tell me... I wonder if you're going to read this. Not likely, because you have always been so busy. Never mind, Theen gave me two more months to get over it. Let's hope I can...